Don't mess with her

Chapter 38: Reassurance

"You are going to be okay."

"Matty, I know." I smiled at him and said for what it felt like the tenth time today. I was a hundred percent sure that Matty kept saying those words more to himself. He needed some type of reassurance that everything will be okay. Which I hope it will...

I know the doctors have said that the procedure it's simple and most of the time the results are positive, but I couldn't keep my mind positive. I've heard all this crap before being told to my mother, and look where it got her.

Back then I was just a kid, naive and gullible. So of course, if an adult, especially a doctor, told you that everything will be okay and that your mom is going to survive because the procedure is a 'simple' one, you'd believe it. But not this time around. Now I know what could be the consequences and results of the procedures.

I was currently sitting on a hospital bed (which, mind you, are freaking uncomfortable) trying to comprehend everything that has happened to me. Today was the day they would try to remove the thing that has made my nightmares reappear.

Nothing that was said could prepare me for what's coming.

Well, not if what was being said would come from someone's words.

Where is he? All that I've received from him were calls and text messages, but he hasn't been here since we had the talk. I know I should give him a break but is not like my "clinginess" wasn't justified. But every time I tried to talk about him not being here he would easily change the subject. Not like I didn't know, but I let it slip. Maybe he had a good excuse.

Reason

That's what my heart would tell me. I know he had his reasons, but curiosity was eating my good reasoning.

"Emily?" I turned to find Jake's concerned expression.

"Are you sure you are okay? You've been spacing out a lot." I tried to give my best smile trying very hard to change all my brothers concerned and pained expressions.

"Guys would you stop stressing? I'm sure everything it's going to be fine. You won't get rid of me that easily." I reassured them. I needed to be strong, especially for them.

Matty was going to say something else when he got cut by a nurse that walked in the room. "You guys, how many times am I going to tell you that maximum visitors per room are two?" The nurse reprimanded in a soft tone. She had already come previous days and said the same thing us every day. But every time she just tells us, winks and leaves.

"Boys you got to give her a little rest. Now come on. Shoo!" She clapped her hands trying to make them go away. They chuckled but complied and started to say their goodbyes.

"She you later loser." Brody smiled and kissed my cheek. "Love you."

"Stay positive. And if you do see a hot nurse give her my number, will ya?" Matty winked and instinctively I rolled my eyes. He smiled and kissed the top of my head. "love ya."

"I don't have to kiss her, do I?" Jake whispered loud enough for me to hear.

Though I think that was his intention. I narrowed my eyes at him. He smiled and hurried over encircling his arms around my shoulders giving me a tight hug. "You better not leave us bun butt. I love you." His whispered words made me take a deep sharp breath, making my eyes sting with unshed tears.

I hugged him even tighter. "I love you too." I whispered back and turned my sight towards the rest.

"I love you all so much." I chocked. It was the second time in my life that I saw my brothers with watery eyes. Of course, the first being during my mother's burial. But I refused to think about it. Not now if I wanted to be brave for them.