Fangirl : There is Always Hope {A for KING & COUNTRY fanfiction}

Prologue

"No! You don't understand!" I rushed into my room, eyes filled with tears that I wouldn't dare let fall. Slowly I glanced at the picture on my wall and smiled. I wiped away the would-be tear.
I turned on my CD player and automatically started singing happily, as if the thousandth quarrel with my mother hadn't just occurred. "It won't last forever. It's just a teenager phase." I told myself for what felt like the millionth time. I leaned back and let out a sigh. I knew really well that this wasn't a phase. I'd been having these problems since I was eight. Although I hate to admit it, I have serious depression.
Nevertheless, I continued with my day as my mind shot thoughts in my head that I couldn't ignore. "You're ugly," I thought "You're trash. You can't do anything right." While everyone else described me as "Beautiful, lively, and well-rounded," I thought to myself as "Hideous, boring, and a troublemaker."
"Hey," my big sister, Kayla, asked "What's wrong? You seem upset."
"Nothing. I'm fine." I'm a very talented actress(along with my other many talents), so I, as always, was able to mask my sadness with a very convincing smile.
"Okay. Just checking."
I just smiled and went into my room. I told myself that I couldn't be happier. I had a good life. Nothing was wrong at all.
I cried myself to sleep that night.

Hello everyone! This is my very first story!! I'm excited to write some more! I've been trying to come up with ideas, and I'll try to write as often as possible. Please give me your honest opinion in the nicest way possible! P. S. Joel and Luke will come in soon!