Fangirl : There is Always Hope {A for KING & COUNTRY fanfiction}

Chapter 4

JANUARY
I didn't get anything for Christmas. Not even a card. Not even food. We didn't even celebrate.
But I did listen to for KING & COUNTRY's Christmas album, but that was just about it. I'm surprised I even remember the holiday. They celebrated New Year's, but I wasn't allowed to leave my room.
It was the first day of school. I was on the bus, quietly listening to music. Then, all of a sudden, I hear a scream. The bus driver lost control of the bus as we were crossing a bridge. We fell off of the bridge, about to plunge into the Mississippi River. Instead of screaming or crying like the others, I got out a huge rock from my schoolbag. I know, it's weird that I carry a big rock in my schoolbag, and it may seem fake, but it's real. I'm weird. It's what I do.
I smashed the window open with the rock and threw my phone as high in the air as I could. I jumped out of the bus just as it plunged into the water. I swam to the surface and quickly caught my phone, which surprisingly was still in perfect condition. I am only a weak swimmer, so I knew it was only a matter of time before I couldn't swim anymore. I had forgotten about everyone else until I saw all of the bubbles around me stop.
I didn't care about anyone but one person.
Elli.
"Elli! Elli!" I yelled and yelled "Elli! Please, where are you?"
Nobody else surfaced.
I quickly dialed 911 on my phone. I was hoping that somehow, someway, that Elli was okay. That she would come back to life.
But it was impossible.
I practically ripped my hair out.
Someone eventually came to rescue me, but who cares about that? I wanted my Elli.
But I can't have her. She's gone forever.   That's my life in a nutshell.
After I returned home from the hospital, I couldn't stop crying over Elli. I missed her.
"Oh, don't worry." mom said "You'll make other friends."
By then, I was furious. All of these years, nobody's been helping me! Sure, I guess it's okay, but the time I need it most, that's what spews out of her mouth?
"Other friends? Other friends!"
I ran and got her favorite vase. I smashed it on the floor. "DON'T WORRY, YOU'LL GET OTHER VASES!" I went into her room and smashed her TV with my bare fist. "DON'T WORRY, YOU'LL GET ANOTHER TV!"
My mom was furious. "Celeste! That was uncalled for! I liked that vase! And that TV was expensive!"
"Oh, yeah? Well I loved Elli! And there is no other Elli! You're taking such consideration into material things that can be replaced, when I've just lost something that can never be replaced! And what's YOUR response? What type of mom are you!?"
"The type of mom that just grounded you for a month. Go to your room! No electronics and no for KING & COUNTRY!"
I just stood there, my jaw wide open. This was crazy. What did I do to deserve this? I was born. That's what.
I ran into my room and slammed the door. I started bawling. Since when was I a crier? Since when was I so weak? I could barely stand, so I kneeled. Then I realized that that was a stupid position, but I couldn't move. I seriously couldn't move anything except for my head and my hands. Then, I eyed my Bible.
I got it.
"Alright, alright! I can take a hint."
Then, I did something I never thought I'd do again.
"Dear God, this is actually very weird talking to you. It seems like I'm talking to nobody especially after all of this has been happening to me. And I'm not a master prayer, so please don't ignore me. I'm asking for your undivided attention, just this once. It's... It's been very hard for me over the last few years. And I just lost someone that I was very close to. It hurts. It sometimes makes me wonder, are you even there? I'm not your wisest creation. I don't know everything. How have I been through so much, yet I still have no idea what happened? It seems like every time I talk, I'm shouting, yet I'm not really saying anything. Life gave me lemons, but somehow I made orange juice. I thought I was doing something right for a change, yet I mixed it up. As usual. I may seem very selfish because I've only been praying for myself lately, but I just didn't wanna hurt anybody else. Even if my prayers don't happen, my life already sucks anyways, so what do I have to lose? Dear God..." I paused, imagining how unlikely these next three words would do anything to my life, but something was pushing me. There was no way I couldn't do it.
"I need a miracle."

Poor Elli! Fun fact: Elli's character is based off of my real best friend, who's name is also Elli. She was mad that she died, though. But it had a purpose.
And also, a miracle... Wonder how that'll turn out.