8 Years Gap

Gap #33

Yumiji's POV

Same day before I met her, huh. Let's do this. I took a bath and cooked something to eat for breakfast. It's somehow unusual for me to wake up this late. Maybe I got used to wake up so early just to go to the office to see her, but I have to forget all about that.

My phone buzzed and I saw that Iyah texted me. I just ignored it.  I went to the basketball court where my friends were waiting.

Why do girls always play a man's heart? I should forget her first before I engage myself for marrying Iyah. I just want her out of my mind. I just want her out of my heart. If that day is today, so be it and so it should be. 

"Wow. Serious and focus, is that you?" Sean teased me and seated beside me for the break time.

"I just need to forget one thing and one person then, I am ready to marry Iyah. As soon as possible, I have to."

"You call your feelings a "thing"? Come on, Yumi. What you felt is not a thing. You carried it beneath your heart. It can't be erased that easily. If you think that you can forget her in just one day, then you're wrong. Same goes in what you're feeling for her." My previous coach whistled and it time's up for break time.

What can I do? She's never sure of her feelings, but I was. 

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After that, I went to the bar. Whiskey. Girls. Loud music. Yes. That was my life before I met her. I was even called a playboy and I really was. Every other day, a woman will slap me in the university because they thought they were my girlfriend but was really not. Just a one night girlfriend and that's it.

"Hey." A woman approached me and I know she is trying to seduce me.

"Hi." I grinned and for sure, I'll go back the way I was.

I was about to kiss her when I remembered her smiling face. I stopped. I walk out of the bar and went inside my car.

"Shit!" I punched the car wheel then, my phone buzzed again. I looked at it and was surprised from whom the message came from. It's Angeli.

"Whatever I did, I'm really sorry."

Just those five words and it made me think of her again. Sean was right. I can't get over her in just one day. I thought I am not too attached to her, but I was wrong. I thought it's easy to forget my feelings. Why did I thought it was easy when in fact its really not? Why am I pushing myself?

All I wanted is to be away from her. Away from the pain she gave me.