20 years

I don't drink that much

Jessica's 22nd birthday.

"It's my birthday!" Jessica says in a cute voice.
"Awesome, just one year closer to death."
"Sam!" Her smile fades.
"I'm just playing! What are we doing today?"
"Well I have to work."
"Ugh!"

Jessica was in the middle of filming Tootsie.

"I know, babe, but I have to go." Jessica says messing with Sam's collar.
He held her back and she looked down at her fingers messing with the buttons on his shirt.
"You haven't told me happy birthday yet." She pouts.
"Hm! Happy Birthday, Jessie." Sam kisses her forehead.
"Thank you." She looks at him and smiles.
"Let's go to the bar tonight."
"No Sam..." Jessica's eyes travel back to the buttons.
"Why?"
"I just don't want to." She nods.

In the past few months, Jessica has noticed a dramatic behavior change when Sam goes drinks. He never goes out and has one or two beers, he has to get hammered every single time, and Jessica just wasn't in the mood.

"Oh we're going out, Jess!"
"Sam!" She whines.
"Jessica!" He mocks her.
Jessica giggles and Sam smiles, "Why don't you wanna go out? Your friends can come too, obviously!"
"I just.."
"You just what?"
"I just.. well, honey.. I don't want you to drink so much."
"I don't drink that much."
"Sweetie, yes you do."
"Alright, here and there, but not to where we can't even go out on your birthday!"
"... Yeah.. Well just don't over do it."
"I won't.  Now, we're going out tonight, invite whoever you want."
"Alright.." She looks at him and fakes a smile.

***

"I just wanna say.. Happy fucking birthday to my hoe.. oh, I mean Jessica!" Sam slurs as Jessica just sits at the table looking embarrassed.
"Hey baby, look, look.. this shot is for you." Sam raises his shot glass and downs it.
Jessica looks at him with a blank, but slightly upset face.
Dustin sees that she's upset, so he goes to sit right beside her.
"Hey.. you okay?"
"Hm? Yeah.. yeah, I'm fine." She gives him a small smile.
"I don't believe that smile. You're the birthday girl, you should be happy!" He wraps his arm around her.
"I am happy!"
He looks at her and she giggles, "I promise!"

Throughout the night, Sam showed his ass more and more.
Jessica was furious, but she didn't want to make a scene. So she took off and left him there without a way of getting home.

***

It was 4:30 in the morning and Sam was still not home.
Jessica was worried about him, and felt bad that she left him there.
She felt sad and alone. It was her birthday, but it was far from a happy day.
Her family was all back home, her best friend was on a mission trip across the world, and her boyfriend was lord knows where.

Jessica hears the front door slam, making her jump.
Her eyes widened and she heard him yell, "Jessica! Get your fucking ass down here!"
Her heart raced. The tone of his voice terrified her. She had never heard him so mad before.
Jessica grabbed her blanket and covered herself, to pretend she was asleep.

Sam walked into the bedroom and flung open the door, making it hit the wall.
Sam sobered up a bit, but was still not in the right mind set. He threw off the covers, grabbed her arm and yanked her off the bed, making her hit the ground.
"Ah! SAM!"
"Oh shut up, Jessica! Why did you leave me there?!"
"I--I'm sorry!" She looks up at him with big watery eyes.
Sam grabs her wrist and roughly pulls her up.
"Ah!" Jessica lets out a small gasp.
"It took me forever to find a ride, what were you thinking?!"
"I wasn't, I'm sorry!" She looks down.
Sam slaps her hard across the face, with so much force, it knocks her to the ground.
Jessica yelled in shock and held her face.
Sam got down on the ground, yanked her up, and said, "You will Never do that to me again, do you understand me?"
Jessica pauses and Sam slaps her again, this time harder than the first.
"I said, do you understand me?!" He yells louder.
"Yes! Yes.. I'm sorry."
Sam looks at her with anger as he squeezes her wrist tight.
Blood and tears were running down Jessica's face.
"Go to bed!" He throws her to the ground, making her yelp.

She laid on the ground crying, and Sam went to the bathroom to shower.
Jessica got up and cleaned herself off, then went to bed.

She laid there still shaking. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't get to sleep.
When Sam came out, she closed her eyes, hoping he wouldn't bother her.

He looked and her and huffed before he laid beside her.

Her back was towards him, and she tried her best not to burst into tears, making her breathing sound like a pant.

***

The next morning the alarm woke them both.
"Ah man.. My head!" Sam rubs his head.
Jessica looks at him with a worried look, and Sam's eyes widen, "Jess! What--What happened?!"
"You know what happened, Sam."
"I didn't realize it got so out of hand!"
"Alright..." Jessica just let it go. She didn't want him to turn on her again.
Sam props himself up on his elbow and softly caresses her cheek with his thumb.
"Jessie, I am so so sorry." He says looking at the cuts and bruises on her face.
"It's fine, Sam."
"No it's not.. How could I do this?"
"Can we please just not talk about it?" Jessica lightly scratches her forehead and Sam sees a big dark bruise on her wrist.
"Oh God.." Sam grabs it, making her take a sharp breath in.
"Sorry! What else did I do?"
"Nothing."
"Jessica, tell me!"
"You threw me to the ground a couple times.."
Jessica could tell there was a bruise on her back, because it was sore just laying on it.
Sam pulled off the covers and put one leg on each side of her body.
"Sam, please don't." Jessica turns her head to the side.
"Jessica, I am so so sorry." Sam kisses her wrist, then bends down and kisses her neck.
"Sam, get off of me."
He looks into her eyes, and gently runs his fingertips on her cheek.
Jessica avoided eye contact with him.
Sam bent down and softly kissed her marks he had left on her, causing them to sting.
"Ah!" She gasps.
"I'm sorry! Oh gosh... What did you do, Sam?" He says to himself, as he examines her face.
"Jessica.. Baby, I am so sorry."
She just looks at him and he runs. his fingers over her lips.
"I promise, I will never ever lay another hand on you... I will never forgive myself, Jessica."
She doesn't say a word, but sees Sam's eyes fill with tears.
She had never really seen him emotional like that.
"Jessie, I'm sorry!"
"I know.."
Sam bends down and softly kisses her lips, then buries his face in the crook of her neck.
He kisses her, then stays there taking in her scent.
Jessica could tell Sam was sorry, and that he meant it.
She slowly moves her hand to his back and in a low voice, says, "Just don't ever do it again."
Sam looks into her eyes and says, "I won't.  I promise you, I won't!"
Jessica gives him the smallest smile, and he bends down to kiss her again, but this time more intense.
"Ow!" Jessica pushes him off of her.
"I'm sorry."
"It's okay.. it just stings a little." She says bringing her fingertips to her mouth and lightly touching it.
Sam doesn't say anything, he just stares at what he did to her.
Jessica notices and changes the subject.
"You know what I didn't get on my birthday?" She smirks.
Sam chuckles and crawls backwards, the goes down to her center.
"Well I think I can do something about that!" He smiles.
"Better late than never!" Jessica giggles.

***

"Oh God!  Shit!" Jessica says grabbing onto Sam and digging her nails into his back.
"Oh baby.." Sam breathes harder.
Jessica could tell he was getting close, and she wanted so bad to feel him release inside of her.
She locked her legs around him, and pressed down on his butt, forcing him inside of her.
"What are the odds of me getting pregnant the first time we have unprotected sex?" Jessica thought to herself.
Sam really didn't pay attention, he was too into it to even think about it being wrong.
Sam came and he let out a long and loud, "Ahhhh, Jessieeee!"
Jessica giggled and enjoyed his warm fluid run through her body.
He laid his body on hers, and Jessica laughed.
"Did you have fun?"
"Oh God.." He looks into her eyes and moves the hair out of her face.
"I love you.  I love you, I love you, I love you!"
*Giggles* "I love you too." Jessica smiles.