"I HATE HER"

5

I don't know what to say, but....enjoy I guess?

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The singer sat at Karlies Kitchen Island, chewing concentratedly at her bottom lip. The light of her silver Mac Book illuminated her face as she searched through the web, trying to find some articles about her leaving the house in her sleepwear.

As soon as the painkillers started working, the model went back to bed, trying to cure her hangover. A comfortable silence filled the rooms, making it seem as Taylor was alone.

But all she found was a Twitter post from a fan, who said that she also wanted a pajama with cats on it. It was probably still too early, they had left the house only less than an hour ago. But she was positive that they would come if she just waited long enough.

Silently she scrolled through tumblr. Olivia was napping on her legs and the singer slowly pawed her soft fur. Meredith was nowhere to be seen, she probably hid behind some cupboard or something, enjoying her privacy. Meredith wasn't really the human type. She preferred the peace of being alone.

Suddenly a hashtag, she had never heard of before, caught the singers sight. "Kaylor." She knew directly what it was. A mixture of her and Karlies name. Probably a ship name.

Curious the singer used her cursor to click on the grey colored word. Multiple Pictures of her and Karlie popped up on her screen. There were a lot of pictures of the two, considering that there were only married for a few days and barely spent time together, meaning that they also were barely seen together.

Most of them were of her and Karlie holding hands. The shots were taken from the paparazzi at the day Taylor moved into Karlies apartment, she recognized the clothes they were wearing. The others were from the day of their marriage. Some from the party, in bad light, blurry and with people standing everywhere, some at the entrance of the church, those where slightly better, probably taken by the high tech cameras of the paparazzi. Their faces were illuminated by the light of the flashes, while the background was in a dark contrast. It was one of these speed marriages apparently. Not really that kind of marriage she imagined to have.

Taylor could see the drunkenness in her face. Her grin was sloppier than usual and her eyes where glimmering brightly. Scrolling down a little, the singer found a photograph of her and Karlie kissing. It looked pretty real for the singer, considering that it was all just an act. At least from Karlies side.

She felt sorry for their fans. They really seem to like us as a couple, the singer thought with a sad smile on her face. They were always supporting her, being nice to her, forgetting about the mistakes she made. And now she lied to them about such a big thing.

They built a whole community upon her lie. And in less then two months she would destroy all of it, disappoint them, ruin a thing they were so enthusiastic about.

Tears filled her eyes. "What have I done?", she whispered.

She felt disgusting, dirty. She was betraying her fans, the people she owed so much to. She owed her whole career to them and all she did to thank them was lying.

She lied to them because she couldn't accept the mistakes she made. She lied to them, because she was an egoistic bitch, that was controlled by her insecurities and the media.

She didn't deserve them. She didn't deserve any of her fans, she thought to herself as tears started streaming down her face, dropping at the face of one of the cats that was printed onto her pajama.

It didn't took long and she started sobbing uncontrollably. It's not even 1 pm and you're already having a breakdown, wow Taylor, the singer though to herself. What a messed up live you're having.