A New Beginning

Chaper 17

*the next day*

Ezra's P.O.V

   I woke up to find myself snuggled up to da-I mean, Kanan. Why did I almost call him my dad? He isn't my dad. My dad died a long time ago in the war protecting me with mom. I shook my head to forget any of the bad memories. I wasn't going to be a baby again, I'm almost a teen!

   I sighed and was going to get up but something was stopping me. Actually, two things were stopping me. One of them was Kanan cause his arms were still around me and the other was the love and security of the embrace. I felt safe in his arms and I didn't know why I thought that I didn't deserve it. I may almost be a pre-teen but I'm still a child. A child that's been missing out on this kind of stuff.

   I relaxed a bit more and enjoyed it while it lasted. It didn't last long when Kanan started to move a bit and open his eyes. "Morning Ezra," Kanan said rubbing his eyes. "Mor-ning," I replied in a dazed state. Kanan unraveled his arms from around me so I could get up. I yearned to be back in the embrace again but I didn't want to look like foolish and demanding like a wealthy kid.

   I rolled off the couch and stood up. Kanan sat up on the couch and stood stretching. "How about we surprise the two with breakfast?" Kanan said making me raise an eyebrow. He couldn't cook if his life depended on it and I surly couldn't. "I meant we could order take out," he restated. "What take..out?" I asked stumbling on my words as usual. That's when I noticed my fingers against my palm as usual too.

   "It's going to a place with food and you can take it with you out of the building," Kanan explained. "Oohh," I said understanding and nodded. "But first, let's get some new clothes," he said and I agreed. Both of us looked like a mess. Then I noticed the bandages on my arm and almost forgot that I was cutting. Well, I was reminded again and I sadly looked at them.

   I felt something lay on my shoulder and saw that it was Kanan's hand. "You alright?" He asked and I gestured to my bandages. "Hey Ezra, look at me," he said and I gingerly looked him in the eyes. "That's the past so let's keep moving on and I'll be here every step of the way, ok?" He said. I nodded and smiled a little. He meant every word and I felt like the luckiest street rat that ever lived.

   Kanan smiled back and went off to somewhere in the house. I sat on the couch and waited patiently for Kanan to come back. A few minutes later, he rounded the corner with some clothes on his hands. "Here, wear these until we get you a new pair of clothes," he said and I nodded wondering. What did he mean by getting new clothes?

   I shrugged and remembered that this wasn't Kanan and Hera's house. So where do I change? I went back to the living room to find it empty. I looked around the house a little more until I bumped into Copper. "Sor-ry," I apologized looking at the floor. I felt a zap in my arm and looked up to see that Copper had a mini electro box that shocks you. It felt like someone pinched me in the arm.

   I glared at him and rubbed my arm. He put two fingers up pointing at his eyes then turned it towards me meaning that he was watching me. I gulped a little scared and nodded my head yes. He nodded and pointed down the hall. "Thank.....you," I said looking at the floor and walked down the hall. I found the bathroom and went inside. Before I went in all the way, I glimpsed at Copper and saw him smiling at my in a kind way.

   I shut the door with thoughts of why Copper smiled at my when he didn't even like me. Was he one of those doctors that gets drunk behind other doctors backs? I shook the thoughts out and finished getting ready. When I was done, I left the bathroom and went back to the living room.

I entered the room and found Kanan and Hera sitting on the couch. I backed up quickly and hide behind the corner in shame. "Ezra, what are you doing?" I heard Kanan ask. I poked my eyes around the corner and saw that the bandages around mo- darn it, I meant Hera's head were gone.

They are not my parents! Why do I keep thinking they are! Well.....they do care and love me like my parent's did. No! They aren't my parents! I kept having a mental war in my head while the two adults watched me with worry.

'Hera probably hates me!' I thought.

'Why would you say that?'

Oh great, it's the voice inside my head that I usually talk to when I was by myself. 'I flipp'en left her and ran away!'

'Yes but, you are back and she is forgiving.'

'That's cause I was knocked out and Kanan carried me back! And well.......I guess she is forgiving but why? After all the trouble I caused especially.'

'That is true but we ran, which made Kanan look for us.'

'Ok, that's true but still, why is she so forgiving?'

'Hello earth to genius, she's been worried sick about us and that's the first thing you think? Sheesh, she loves us! When are you going to get that in your head?'

'Ugh, I hate it when you're right.'

'Dude, I'm your common sense. When am I ever wrong?'

I mentally rolled my eyes and looked over at Hera and Kanan. They looked really worried that I didn't answer. "Ezra sweetie, are you ok?" Hera asked in a motherly tone. I nodded my head and shyly hide behind the wall while my habit started up again.

   "Ezra, can you come here please?" Hera asked. I peeked around the corner again and saw that Kanan was gone. I see Hera gesture to come over and sit next to her.

'GO! What are you waiting for?! It's not like she's going to reject you!'

I flinched and then the idea of rejection fills me up.

'Ok, wrong choice of words but I promise to ourself that this is different, she is different. Go for it. Besides, didn't you think that she reminds us of anyone...'

'Yeah....'

I gathered up my courage and looking at the floor, I walked over and sat down next to Hera. I kept rubbing my fingers against my palms and faced the ground. The silence between us was unbearably nerve racking at me. Here I'm sitting with someone that cared for me when no one else did. Then I abandoned her and ran away when she needed me.

Plus on top of all of this, she was a wealth person. Since when was the last time I've seen a wealthy person actually be nice to me? Oh yeah......never, this was the first. My whole life has been thinking that all wealthy people were evil, greedy, snobs that only cared about themselves. Now I'm sitting next to one that saved me from people, loneliness, and the streets. 

   'She even helped you when you were sick.'

   'Shut up common sense.'

   'I can't.'

   'Why not?'

   'Dude, I'm you, when do we ever shut up?'

   'Man, I never thought I would be tired of listening to my own voice in my head.'

   'Hey! Don't you have better things to be doing?!'

   'Like what?'

   "Ezra," I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard Hera's voice. 'Her you dimwit,' I heard the voice in my head. 'You do realize you are me to right?' 'I'm the smarter you.' I rolled my eyes and ignored the voice. I looked up at Hera shyly and sadly and she looked at me.

   "I-I'm sor-ry," I said then turned back towards the ground ashamed. I felt two fingers were placed under my chin and guided me back to face Hera. "I'm not mad and I'm so glad you are safe," she said softly with a smile. Hera leaned over and kissed my forehead then gave me a hug. I smiled and returned the hug.

   'I told you.'

   'Yeah, thanks.'

   'No sweat.'

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