My Fucking Mixed Up Love Triangle

Letting It All Go

Ethan and I got in the car and was on our way to Waffle house to get waffles for everybody since were on breakfast duty. "How did you and Jake meet" I said. "We were at recess and a group of boys were beating the shit out of him and being the nice person I am I decided to step in and help him" Ethan said.

"So from then on you and him have been bestfriends" I asked. "Yes but now he won't talk to me"Ethan said looking sad. "Its ok we'll think of something if you guys are as close as it looks then you guys will be friends before we leave this weekend" I said.

We pulled up to the waffle house and got out. We walked up to the cash register and got 20 waffles, eggs, and bacon. We sat down at the counter and waited for them to give us our food. I pulled out my phone and texted Jake.

Me: I know your mad at me but can we talk when I get back

Jake: So now you know who I am. You've been acting like a total bitch to me now you wanna talk things out fuck you Kayla. where was this talk things out attitude when I wanted to talk to you.

Me: When I was mad at you I allowed you to talk just let me do the same....please

Jake: Thats the thing you had no right to be mad at me. Your problem was with Kylie not me.

e: I see that now and I'm sorry so please just talk to me.

Jake: You can go to hell

I understand that I had no right to be mad at Jake for being with Kylie but I guess I thought since we were friends he wouldnt go for the one person I hated the most.

" Who are you talking to"Ethan said. "nobody" I lied and texted jake again. "so we're lying to eachother now" Ethan said. I ignored what he said and went back to my phone.

me: well I'm sorry that I got between you and Ethan and I'm sorry that i got mad at you because of Kylie.

jake: I can see why you have trust issues because of your mom but that doesn't give you the right to be mad at everyone.

how does he know about my mom. I never told him about it which means two of the people I did tell told him. so I texted the first person that came to mind .....Kylie.

me: Kylie did you tell jake about my mom.

Kylie: no I wouldn't do that to you again

so that only leaves one other person.....

Ethan

"I guess we are lying to eachother" I said. "what are you lying about" Ethan said."I was just talking to jake"I said turning towards Ethan."What are you lying about"I asked looking Ethan in the eyes.

"Nothing you know I would never lie to you"Ethan said taking my hands in his."Did you tell Jake about my mom"I said looking Ethan in his eyes. "How did you find out" Ethan said pulling me closer to him. "So its true" I said getting up and walking outside.

I felt nothing I wasn't mad at Ethan at all the only thing I was mad at was that he didnt tell me he told Jake. I was planing on telling Jake myself when the time was right.

"Are you mad at me" Ethan said putting the the food in the car."To tell you the truth no and I dont know why I'm not"I said walking over to him. "I just wish you would have told me first"

"I'm sorry" Ethan said. I walked over to the passenger side of the car and got in. "I've been working on something for you" Ethan said. "What is it?  When do I get it?" I said bouncing up and down."Soon and you'll see its a surprise"Ethan said.

We got to the beach house and as soon as I got out I saw Jake walking towards me. "Kayla I'm so-". Jake didnt have the chance to finish because I cut him off. "You have nothing to apologize for everything you said was absolutely true. I said grabbing some of the bags from the back seat and walking towards the house.

"Well how about that talk"Jake said. "Yea I'll be right out" I said walking into the house. I put the food on the table and grabbed some for Jake and I and began to walk back outside.

"Kayla I'm really sorry about what I said I had no right to bring up your mom after everything your mom has done"Jake said. " it's fine you were giving me a reality check and it was one that I needed. I have spent my whole life thinking about someone who I'm pretty sure hasn't been thinking about me. I've had plenty of opportunitys to find my father but the thing is why the hell should I he didnt want me. I know its not a coincidence he left a few years after I was born" I said looking up at the sky.

"There's nothing that anyone can do to change there past but I will do whatever is necessary to determine my future" I said

"Kalyla dont think like that you dont know that your father left because of you"Jake said. "Jake but thats where your wrong. Picture this im seven and my mom was coming home from going out with a few friends and my sister Hazel was sleeping. I walk down stairs to see her crying drinking scotch and when she sees me it's like a switch was flipped inside her. She got up and walked over to and said Your the reason your father left he only wanted one kid but then I got pregnant with you and he left. Kayla Marie Lewis you may carry my name but you will never be my daughter" I said getting up off the ground and facing Jake

"My own mother telling me I didnt mean shit to her. That me being here, me being in this perfect world that she thinks she made for me was a mistake. Jake I'm a mistake". I said breaking down

"Kayla she may have made a perfect world for you but you arnt a mistake" Jake said. "Bullshit this world. I have created for myself I've worked my ass off since I was eight so I wouldnt have to spend a penny of her money" I said

"I've provided for myself never depending on anyone but MYSELF. She was different with my sister she actually loved her even took her on a few business trips. When I was twelve my mom came home drunk again this time I knew better than to approach her but she came for me. She came in my room and sat on my bed and told me how she tried to abort me but aparently it didnt work that night I packed a bag and I left. Twelve years old and I was running around the street hoping that a car would hit me and when I saw the bright light coming toward me I stopped waiting for the impact but Of course it was a police officer and he escorted me back home. And she did the standard parenting routine and acted like she cared that I ran away. But when the officer left she hit me she slapped me so hard that her hand print was there for a week. At twelve your suppose to be afraid of the world but I counted down the days till I left that hell hole and never had to look back"I said

"Kayla I had no idea she did all of this to you" Jake said. I didnt want you, Kylie or Ethan to know but Kylie saw the hand print on my face that monday when we came back to school and Kylie told Ethan and Ethan told you. I didnt want anyone to know not because I was ashamed of what had happened to me but because I didnt want anyones pitty" I said

"Your lucky Jake and so is Ethan. Ethan has had you to lean on when the stuff with his dad went down. And you've had him when your stuff went down" I said wiping my face.

"How do you know something went down with me" Jake said. "With everything I've went through I've learned that everyone isnt who they appear to be. I see past the mask that you have on. The way your body reactes but you face dosent " I said

"But you and Ethan were ment to be friends you guys found each other for a reason dont let me be the reason you guys stop talking" I said

"Your right Kayla and I'm happy that Ethan found you" Jake said

"Why are you happy he found me" I said. "Because you might be the one to save him" Jake said. "Save him from what" I said sitting down under the tree.

"From himself" Jake said and walked into the house