My Fucking Mixed Up Love Triangle

Forgiving And Forgetting

I  wasn't a very religious person but in the short ten minute ride I prayed that Kylie was ok. We pulled up to the hospital and I couldn't bring myself to get out of the car. I sat on my shaking hands and leaned my head forward so my hair could cover my face and allowed a tear to fall from my eyes. "Hey look at me" Ethan said pulling my to face him and pulling my hair out of my face. "You have to be strong for her" Ethan said. "I cant go in there and see her in pain and i've been such a shitty bestfriend" I said letting another tear fall and turning away and closing my eyes. "You have to be strong for her Kayla no matter whats happened in the past all that matters is now" Ethan said putting his forehead to mine. "Breath Kayla' Ethan said doing the breathing motions. "We should go in now" Ethan said pulling away. We both got out the car and went into the hospital. "Can you please tell me where room one hundred twenty five is please" I said. "Down the hall and to the left" the receptionist said.

"Im going to wait out here for you" Ethan said going into the waiting room. I walked to Kylie's room and opened the door. "Kylie" I said walking up to the hospital bed.  

As soon as I walked into the hospital room I saw my bestfriend but she didnt look like my bestfriend. She was pale and she had a breathing tube in her nose. I'd taken one step into the hospital and i was already ready to cry but I heard Ethans words echoing in my head "You have to be strong for her Kayla no matter whats happened in the past all that matters is now" .

"Kylie whats wrong" I said going over to her. "Nothing im fine" Kylie said giving me a fake smile. "No your not. Your pale and you have a breathing tube in your nose" I said sitting in the chair next to her bed. "Im white Kayla im always pale" She said turning away from me. "Not like this Kylie. What's going on talk to me" I said. "I have Sickle Cell Anemia" Kylie said letting a tear fall from the corner of her face. "Kylie in so sorry" I said going around to the other side of her bed and getting in next to her. "Im just ready to die" Kylie said. "Why would you say something like that" I said. "Because with this disease im only going to be surviving and I dont want to survive. I want to live" Kylie said. "I'll be in and out of the hospital always having to be careful and I dont want to be in the hospital and I want to be reckless" Kylie said looking at the ceiling. "So why not end it before it gets to bad. Atleast I'll have the good memories" Kylie said.

I pulled out my phone and texted Ethan.

Me: Can you please bring my guitar.

Ethan: Of course.

Five minutes later Ethan came in and handed me my guitar. I pulled it out of the case and started to tune while Ethan talked to Kylie. I got up and went over to Kylies side of the bed and sat down at the edge and started to play. 

I'm standing on a bridge

I'm waiting in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain

No footsteps on the ground

I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand?

Take me somewhere new

I don't know who you are

But I... I'm with you

I'm with you