My Chemical Romance, Infected

Chapter 18: Fighting

Chapter 18: Fighting

"I understand, Gerard." Lyn-Z said kissing my nicotine tasting lips. That's what I love her for. She never cares about my addictions or the way I look. "I am scared to be a mother." She said leaning against me. Months passed and we just stayed in hotels and parking lots. I took Lyn-Z to the doctor after six months of being pregnant. There was no heartbeat from the baby. The doctor said it was dead, but I didn't believe it. Lyn-Z fell into a deep stage of depression. As soon as we got back to the apartment we all were renting, they all asked how it went. I shook my head trying to make them stop talking about it. Lyn-Z went into the bedroom and lay there. "What's up with her?" Asked Mikey. "There is no baby." I said wiping my eyes. Everyone was speechless and I went to the kitchen to get a beer. Around ten at night I had about seven beers and I was crazy. "Gerard! Eat something!" Lyn-Z yelled worried. "Why should I? You killed me! You killed our child!" I didn't know what I was saying. Lyn-Z threw a knife at me but missed. "Get the fuck out!" She screamed crying. "I was planning on it anyway!" I stumbled out of the apartment slamming the door. I woke up the next morning in the alley. "What the..." I got up and fell back down. I tried to get up again and I went back up to the apartment not knowing what happened last night. I walked in and everyone was sitting in the living room. "What do you want?" Asked Alicia. "What happened last night?" I asked closing the door. "You got drunk and hurt Lyn-Z's feelings pretty badly. She threw a knife at you but missed." Explained Frank. "Oh no..." I said entering the bedroom. "Lyn-Z..." "Get out!" "I'm sorry! I never meant to hurt you..." I walked over and sat next to her on the bed. "I'm sorry too. But don't get drunk again." I hugged her tightly. "I won't." I kissed her but her stomach was in my way. "I felt some kicks this morning." She said. "So it's still there?" I said. She nodded and I laughed in relief. "Let's go to the doctor and tell her what happened." I said helping her out of bed. The doctor apologized for the misunderstanding but she said there was no heartbeat or movement. "So do you know if it's a boy or a girl yet?" Lyn-Z asked. "It's a girl."