HOLLER. 》 Dan x Reader || Danisnotonfire

Chapter 6|| "Please, don't leave me"

6th update: January 15th

"No way!" Dan lets out an excited squeal as he sees the swing set.

You look at Dan with a surprised look on your face, as you have never heard any male squeal that high in your entire life.

A dark shade of red spreads across Dan's cheeks and he bites his lip nervously.

"I swear I have absolutely no idea what that sound was that just came out of my mouth." he shook his head, giggling slightly.

You smile and shake your head, laughing.

"Race ya to the swings!" you scream as you take off running up the giant hill.

Dan is following close behind you, but very slowly.

Reaching the top of the hill, you collapse onto the grass just as Dan falls down next to you.

You both look over at eachother and smile slightly. You lay there for a minute.

"C'mon! Those swings aren't going to swing themselves!" you say, jumping up and pulling Dan off of the ground.

You both run to the swings.

It's silent for a few minutes until Dan looks at you and slowly reaches his arm over to yours.

You look down as his hand slowly intertwines with yours. His hands were rough, he needed lotion... bad. But it doesn't really bother you.

Your eyes trail up to Dan's and you both stare at eachother before you start to slowly lean in.

Your faces were now inches away, creating a warm tension between you two, your heart had began to beat rapidly, and your palms grew sweaty. You already had your eyes closed, waiting, but Dan had not connected his lips with yours. Instead, the warmth had gone away as Dan had moved his face away from yours quickly.

Your heart dropped slightly, and you stare at Dan who is looking down at his shoes.

"Sorry..." he mumbles. He pulls his hand away from yours. "it just didn't feel right." he looks up at you, and gives you a small, apolegetic smile while brushing his bangs away from his forehead.

"I-it's fine," you lie. "I understand."

-DAN-

We were about to kiss.

I was about to kiss a girl.

But I didn't. I couldn't do it. It didn't feel right.

I was so happy before I was about to kiss her.

But why should I be happy? Why should I feel happy when Gray can't be happy? Gray is never going to be able to feel what I was about to expirience. He's never going to be able to feel this happy, ever.

He's just trapped now. People tell me all the time that he's in a better place, but he's not. If you really think about it. He was so young; he hasn't lived up to his full potential yet in life and he won't be able to do it ever.

It's not fair.

I swallow hard, trying to get rid of the familiar lump forming in my throat.

Y/N and I sit in silence for a few as the wind blows leaves from the trees down infront of us.

One crumbled up, ripped leaf falls into my lap and I look down at it.

I pick it up and crumble it between the pads of my fingertips and watch it crumble to pieces and fall to the woodchips beneath my feet.