HOLLER. 》 Dan x Reader || Danisnotonfire

Chapter 21|| "Theres just too many pieces"

( WARNING: lots of strong language and self harm in this chapter!)

-DAN-

Hey Gray. It's August now and I'm still alone? I have nothing to do around here...it's so boring? No one hangs out with me. I'm forced to hear Simon's dumb parties happening every night now. I wish we could just move, yknow? My life has been pretty good now recently though. I've been happy, my therapist said i'm getting way better, I'm actually eating...I wish you were here, Gray...

Miss you tons,
Your Big Brother x

Sighing heavily, I sit back in my chair and stare at my sloppy writing on the piece of paper.
This is dumb. He's not going to see these. He's not going to see my stupid, pathetic pity letters.

I crumble up my letter and quickly throw it into the black waste bin beside me.

I sit in silence for a few minutes until I hear my mum call me from downstairs.

Getting up quickly, I jog downstairs, (which is unusual) and slide into the kitchen where my mum is, chopping up tomatoes and lettuce for tacos.

"Yeah mum?" I ask.

"We ran out of milk...can you run up to the small store right by our house over there?" she points North to show me which way I have to go.

Pursing my lips together, I nod and head out the door and make my way to the small store that is sat not too far from our house.

Walking in, I pull my hood over my face so people won't stare at me.

Walking over to the little fridges in the back, I open the door quickly and pull out a gallon of milk. Checking the date, I nod and close the door and go to walk to the front, only to run face first into someone.

"Shit i'm sorry." I hear them mumble.

I don't say anything. My lips stay parted. I just look over at the person. I wish I hadn't looked over because when I did, my heart shattered into pieces. My heart completely stopped, and I froze completely.

We're both silent as we stare at each other in shock.

Her name tries to slip past my lips, but nothing comes out.

"Y-Y/N...?" I finally choke out. My voice comes out shaky.

"Dan..." Y/N says my name, it sounding dry as she says it.

All I can do is stare at her. I had completely forgotten about her before and my life was so perfect ever since she left me. But now. Right now I feel like she's all I will ever need. She makes me feel so safe and happy yet so dead at the same time. I cant even find the words to say to her at this moment.

"Nice seeing you again..." she bites her lip nervously.

I don't say anything. I just stare right at her.

I don't even know if I want to speak to her right now. I planned that if I ever ran into her in public then I'll just keep walking, but for some reason my feet are glued to the floor.
Suddenly, Y/N speaks up quickly.

"Listen, Dan. I know we have such a fucked up past, but I'm going to try my best today to apologize and make shit right. Okay?" Y/N looks up at me in desperation.