"Why do you always sit out there in the rain?"
"So no one can tell that i'm crying."
⚠️Trigger warning: if you cannot handle subjects such as self harm, strong violence, strong language, or possibly rape, this book is not for you⚠️
Update: March 18th (yo, sorry I haven't been updating at all. I got my phone taken LOL. I'm updating on my mom's laptop rip. I'm hopefully getting my phone back for spring break so there should be more updates.)
-DAN-
A few days pass, and Y/N and I have been hanging out more than ever.
Watching movies, just laughing so much, having drawing contests and taking naps.
I cant keep down much, but we decide to bake a few things because we're super bored.
"Isn't your mom worried about where you are?" I ask as I keep my focus on the dough I'm rolling out.
"Um..." Y/N's voice is shaky a little. "No. She got a new boyfriend recently and um...she's been over his house a lot. She comes home drunk mostly. So I usually try to get out of the house." She doesn't look over at me.
"What about school?" I ask, looking at her this time.
"I'm not graduating..." she stops mixing the batter and bites her lip hard.
"What? You have to, Y/N." I furrow my brows.
"No, Dan," she looks at me. "I don't. You didn't. Therefore, I'm not going to." She continues to mix the batter.
There's silence between us.
"What about that project you were doing about me?" I look at her.
She's quiet for a minute.
"It doesn't matter anymore I guess." She grabs a little bit of dough from the bowl and starts rolling it into a ball.
I sigh, and grab the cookie cutters from the drawer below me and start shaping the dough.
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After making about probably a thousand cookies, we sit down with a plate of them in between us.
"Holy shit, that was a lot of cookies." I breathe.
"Yeah," Y/N agrees.
I stand up to get the TV remote when I hear Y/N say my name.
"Yes?" I stop and turn around, my full attention on her.
She's quiet for a minute, then she says something that makes my heart stop.
"I love you." she says, her voice shaky.
Not processing what she had just said, I blink and swallow hard, furrowing my brows.
"Y-you what?" I ask, my heart racing, my knees weak.
"I love you, Daniel Howell." she says, looking me in the eyes.
Those words hit me hard. I sit down slowly next to her, and stare into her beautiful eyes, tears brimming mine.
"Y-you don't know how long I've been waiting to hear those words." I whisper.
"I've loved you for so long," she starts. "and when you were gone...it hurt. It hurt so much, Dan," she looks up at me, tears running down her cheeks. It hurts to see her cry. "I felt so empty...so broken."
"Really?" I look up at her, my heart breaking slowly.
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"Yes...please don't do that again. Don't leave me..."
I stare at her for a minute.
I lean in and kiss her softly on the lips. Our foreheads touch, and I close my eyes.
"I'm not going anywhere, darling." I whisper as I look down at her hand and take it. Looking up at her, I wipe her tears with my hand. "I love you, Y/N. And I always will."
