The Clown Who Stole My Heart (A Joker FanFic)

Chapter 9

Taylor's POV: 

"No one knows the truth behind Harley and mines relationship and I want it to stay that way, ok Taylor." He said looking sternly at me.

"You never have to worry about that J." I replied reaching up and cupping his face in between my hands.

"I would never do that to you, considering all that has happened to me, I honestly should be furious with you, but your nothing what I expected, you've been kind and understanding with me throughout this whole experience." I smiled at him.

He looked generally surprised by my response. "Thank you Taylor." Joker said looking for the first since I've been with him lost for words.

"Alright, as I said before let me start at the beginning."

"Everyone knows that I meet Harley or as she was called back then Dr. Harleen Quinzel at the Arkham Asylum where she requested to work with me, I knew straight away she was my way out."

"Before I keep going Taylor I was a terrible person to Harley, I did terrible things to her, I manipulated and used her feelings she had for me against her in order to get what I wanted, when I needed it, I'm not the same person that I use to be, I changed after everything that happened." He said looking down at the ground sadly.

I lifted his face up, smiling at him. "Your nothing what I expected Joker, your so different to what everyone makes you out to be, when I first got here, I was terrified, but you've made me feel safe, Please J, I'm not going to judge you, I think you need to get this off your chest." I said looking straight into his eyes.

He reached up, grabbing both my hands pulling them back down onto his lap squeezing them both so tightly.

"Alright I'll keep going, I just needed you to know." He spoke softly looking back at me.

"When my first psychiatric appointment came around I wasn't sure if Harley would be given to me, she wasn't suppose to be working with my type of case."

"I was waiting in the room for the psychiatrist to come in, everything fell straight into place, Harley walked in."

"I'm not proud of what happened next, I wanted to get close to her, I needed to know her darkest secrets, I was going to manipulate my own story around the same sort outcome that happened to her, I needed her to feel sympathy and compassion."

"In our first few sessions I made a deal with her, I would reveal my darkest secrets only if she revealed something about her past, she fell for it straight away." 

"Her darkest secret came out in about our fifth session together."

"I learn't her father abused and raped her as a child and her mother stood by watching, doing nothing to help, her mother was afraid that her husband would retaliate and physically lash out, if she was to help her daughter."   

That night when I was in my cell, I went over everything I had planned to tell her for out next session." 

"When I saw Harley again I began with how my dad abused my mother in front of me, when he finished beating her, he would turn to me screaming, this is what you need to do if your ever going to be superior.

"I put the icing on the cake within the same session going on about how another time when my father was abusing my mother, I began crying, he turned towards me screaming MEN DON'T CRY THEIR MEAN'T TO SMILE WITH PRIDE, Grabbing me by the arm and pulling me into the kitchen, he pulled out a knife and turned to me saying "If you can't smile on your own accord son, then I'm just going to need to put a permanent smile on your face, reaching out, he grabbed onto my face forcing my mouth open slipped the knife in and slashed open both sides."