Taylor Henderson was nothing special, she was an ordinary girl who had a tragic past and rejected most of her life.
Until one morning when she wakes up in a mysterious hospital unsure of how she got here, where here was and who on earth has kidnapp...
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I can do this, I can do this. I kept repeating this mantra over and over in my head, trying to convince myself that everything would work out, that everything would be fine.
"I can do this." I muttered under my breath, placing another piece of clothing into my bag.
I sat on the edge of my bed leaning my elbows on my knees, resting my head on my hands.
"I can't do this." I mumbled under my breath.
Who the hell am I kidding this won't work, nothing about this plan is going to work, something always goes wrong.
There is no way that I'll be able to hide from Joker forever, he'll just keep looking, I'll never have a normal life, there isn't any normality to it now. How can I have a life when all I'll be doing is running from one place to another starting all over again everytime J gets closer to us.
I'm just going to have to tell Xavier to leave me, I'm just going to be a burden on him anyway. His eventually going to regret taking me when he realizes that his life is over as well, when all he'll be doing for the rest of his life is watching over and protecting me.
I don't want that pressure on him, I'd never expect another person to give up there life for me and if he just leaves he can start a new life. My life has been set for me. This house, J, that's my life and I can't change that no matter how much I would want to.
But deep down I don't really want to change all that much, if only I could get J to meet me halfway and try to have normal relationship with me, I want us to be more than what we are now. Everything else wouldn't matter, I just want him in a way that I know I'll never have.
I sighed running my hands through my hair, what the hell was I going to do?
Why can't decisions just be easy, why can't we just be given the answer, it would make life so much easier. I've never prayed before but I seriously didn't know what else to do. At this point I didn't really care, I needed answers.
I placed my head in my hands and closed my eyes.
"Lord, Umm, Dear Lord, I'm sorry, I've haven't really done this before, not that I'm not a believer, it's just I feel stupid talking to someone whose not there, sorry I didn't mean to offend." This is so stupid Taylor nothing's going to happen your just making yourself look like an idiot. I shrugged it off and kept going it doesn't hurt to try I suppose.
"Lord, you and I both know that my life hasn't been easy, I've been given the hard road in life, but I'm not here to complain about that, everything has happened for a reason and that's why I'm here talking to you, I need a sign, what should I do? what is the right thing to do? Do I go or do I stay? Whose the right person to be with? Please I've never asked for help with anything before, I need your guidance, please help me." I quietly mumbled under my breath, I didn't want Xavier to hear anything I was saying.
I lifted my head up and opened my eyes, nothing, absolutely nothing. I wanted to scream, why is everything so f****n hard.
"Taylor, are you alright." I lifted my head up. Xavier was standing in the doorway, smiling lightly at me.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied rubbing my hands on my thighs. "I was just trying to figure something out, but I got my answer." I smiled over at him.
Xavier nodded his head and went back to his room.
Everything was sorted, I've packed everything that I can carry on my back and I'll get more when I need it.
Though my choice was made, I still had this sick twisted knot forming in the pit of my stomach. Am I really doing the right thing? The hardest part is I'm scared of what J will do when he finds out I'm gone, I don't want him to hurt himself or do anything reckless.
I slung my backpack over my shoulder, heading towards the door. Turning around one last time, I haven't had the best memories in this room but saying that my life has changed so dramatically. I never thought that my life would end up like this. So is it right of me to leave J after what his given me? But I know nothing more will happen here for me.
So I left the room. Shutting the door behind me.
Walking down the hall to the meet up with Xavier, something stopped me, I turned back around and ran towards Jokers bedroom. I just wanted something of his, I needed to feel his presence around me if I wasn't going to see him again, I still wasn't ready to let him go.
I grabbed J purple suit Jacket, he wore this the first time I meet him. It was perfect.
I folded it up and placed it at the bottom of my backpack. I don't want Xavier to know that I had the jacket. I didn't want the drama of him thinking that I'm in two minds about all of this. I've made my choice, well the choice was made for me, I'm leaving and that's final.
