The Clown Who Stole My Heart (A Joker FanFic)

Chapter 20

Xavier wasn't taking any chances, he was getting everything done that was necessary in getting out of this place, he could hardly move with his injuries but that wasn't stopping him. If J did that to him for just telling me the truth, I can only imagine what his going to do when he finds out about the kiss, what would he do to me?

Everything was happening to quickly, none of this is rational. I know all Xavier wants is to protect me, but what would happen when we did leave? I don't even want to think about the kiss.

I've never seen Xavier romantically before and truthfully I still don't, his more like a big brother that I could rely on when things with J got complicated. Then there was J and I can't ignore how I feel for him.

I don't know were we stand or if there will ever be an us? Deep down I have feelings for him, I was falling in love with my Dark Prince but as Xavier said his hurt me repeatedly over and over again and it's not going to stop,  so why should I keep putting my effort into something that is doomed in the first place. 

"Taylor."

Snapping out of my trance, I looked over to Xavier. We were in his bedroom placing everything that we could fit into his suitcase.

"I need you to go into my cupboard and grab the small box underneath the shoe rack." He asked while shoving another pair of pants into the suitcase.

"Sure."

I walked into his cupboard, trying to find the box, eventually I found it stuffed in the back corner.  Bending down to grab the box, it was much heavy than I anticipated, I couldn't help myself turning around I made sure that Xavier wasn't waiting behind me, I grab onto the lid pulling it up, inside the box was not what I expected tones of rolled by 100 dollar bills and a gun with ammo next to it.

"Taylor, what's taking so long, did you find it?" Xavier shouted out from the bedroom.

"Y...yeah, I found it." I screamed back.

Getting up from the floor, I placed the lid back onto the box and walked back into the room. Xavier turned towards me, walked over. Before he had a chance to grab the box in my hands I pulled it away from him and sighed.

"Xavier I know it's none of my business and I shouldn't have looked through you personal belongings, but why do you have a gun? I asked him while looking up at him.

"Taylor." Xavier huffed running his hands through his hair. "Why did you look through it in the first place? He asked crossing his arms over his chest.

"I..I couldn't help myself." I mumbled quietly biting down on my lip.

"I can't be angry with you, even if I wanted to be, that's just who you are." He smiled lightly at me reaching over and grabbing onto the box and taking it from me.

"The reason I have the gun was in a case of an emergency or if anything like this happened, I wanted to be able to protect myself, I didn't know if I had a chance of being able to leave this life when the time would come, I was going to be killed for wanting to leave."

"Do you think I need gun?."

"As long as you stay by my side I'll protect you, I give you my word, I promise." He reached out his free hand gently stroking my cheek, reaching my hand up, I grabbed onto his looking up at him smiling.

"I don't know how I'll be able to do this Xavier, I don't want to hurt J, I care for him but your right about it not being a healthy relationship, but I don't know if I can do this." I sadly said looking at him.

He pulled away from me and placed the box in the suitcase and came back over to me wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me into his chest. He lightly kissed the top of my head.

"I promise you babe, that I'll protect you, I'm going to keep you safe, no one will hurt you while you're with me." Xavier mumbled into my hair kissing the top of my head again.

Babe, he called me babe, my heart fluttered at his beautiful voice calling me his babe, but still for some reason it didn't have the same effect on me unlike when J called me doll face. This is right though, this is the relationship I should be in, I felt special, loved, and safe that was the most important thing wasn't it? 

"Xavier, are you sure you want to take me with you, J will come looking for me, he won't stop till he finds me, he won't let me go that easily." I mumbled into his chest holding onto him for dear life.

Xavier lifted my chin up and smiled down at me.

"I'm not going to leave you here Taylor, I wouldn't have said the idea if I didn't think it would work, I would run to the end of earth to protect you, you mean everything to me Taylor, truth is I feel for you the moment I meet you in the car." Xavier laughed nervously.

I stood up on my tiptoes and grabbed onto his face kissing him softly, he instantly responded grabbing onto my hips, pulling me closer to him. The kiss was soft and full of passion, I felt safe, I felt protected, this is what I need, but something was missing, I shrugged off the feeling and just decided to go with the moment.

The kiss was becoming passionate his hands moved down from my hips, he reached down and squeezed my bum, I moaned slightly, feeling Xavier smirk against my lips he pushed his tongue into my mouth, his breath tasted minty and metallic from the fresh cut on his lips, I should be grossed out but its turning me on even more. Our lips danced and moved together.

Xavier pulled away from me, pecking me on the lips.

"Your so beautiful Taylor, I will never let Joker hurt you again, he doesn't deserve you."

"Thank you Xavier." I replied pecking him on the lips.

"We should get moving Taylor, we've wasted enough time already, although I'm not complaining about this." He smirked at me.

"Hmmm."

Xavier pulled away, but not before pecking me on the lips again. I was a bubbling mess my mind was racing that I almost forgot our biggest problem that we haven't faced yet.

"Xavier, what about the tracking device that Joker planted in my neck." I asked panicking slightly.

"What." Xavier turned around with a sick look on his face.

"J, planted a tracking device in the back of my neck, when I tried escaping from the hospital, I only know because he told me if I tried escaping again he would find me regardless of where I went."

"Why the f**k would he do that, your not some pet he can keep confined to the premises, his an absolute nutcase." Xavier yelled.

A pang of guilt washed over me, it hurt hearing how everyone spoke about J, his not a bad guy, his a lost soul whose trapped in a cycle of misrey which he can't break from.

I really wanted to yell at Xavier for saying it, but I pushed down those feeling ready to boil over the surface and breathed.

"It wasn't right of him to do." Was all I mumbled.

"Look, I'm not equipped to remove something like that Taylor, I don't want to hurt you." He sighed scratching the back of his neck. "But I know someone who can help, the place where we are going has old friends of mine their going to help us keep a low profile.

"Alright."

"Ok, now that I've got most things sorted go and start packing Taylor, will be leaving in the next hour, meet me down stairs in 30 minutes." Xavier said looking over to me.

"I'll see you soon then." I replied back to him.

I left Xavier room and headed towards mine, the only thought going through my mind was am I really doing the right thing.

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Sorry it's been awhile or should I say ages since I've last updated. Uni has been my main priority but I'm on break at the moment, which I'm thankful for.  Sorry if this chapter is bland and short, it's more of a fill in for what's to come, I'll try to update as soon as I can. :)