Fixing a Broken Heart (Under Renovation)

~~The feeling is mutual~~

~~Janessa~~

That was the best date of my life, He was not like Ralph or Kenneth, I know deep inside his different, Di siya gaya ni Ralph na manloloko at lalong di gaya ni Kenneth na two-timer, I know he loves me very much and I COULD FEEL THAT, mahal ko rin siya  but im still not ready to enter to a new relationship, he had fix my heart but not fix it litterally

Di ako mapakali

Anytime maaring mawala siya

O baka matukso siya sa ibang babae

Natatakot parin ako

Pero Labis na inaalala ko

Ang aking kundisyon:'(

Cant you keep a SECRET?.

Wag niyong sasabihin kay Jasper ahh!

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I have Coronary Heart Disease :'(

Namana ko ang sakit na toh sa lola ko

If I experience intense emotion or labis na pag-kapagod ay may possibility na I'll suffer heart attack and die

many times na akong na atake and praise the Lord hindi pa niya ako kinuha

na trigger ito ng nag break kami ni Ralph ,nasaktan ako masyado Oat umabot sa punto na di ako makahinga and i was banned na makipagrelasyon until college, pero nung 3rd year high school, I cant help to fall inlove kay kenneth thats why we kept it a secret, In our relationship di lang para sa kapakanan ni Jane but mostly for me..Dahil alam ko magagalit si Dad, Pero nung pinakilala ko siya sa family di naman sila nagalit pero binalaan nila ako,Weeks after tinotime niya ako, and Inatake ulit ako, Malapit ako nag 50/50 pero nakarecover ako, Pinilit kong magmove-on and I really did, pero bumalik siya at hinwalayan niya si Jane pero dumating na si Jasper, at the first time i saw him i felt sparks already, parang may pwersang umuubos ng lakas pagnapapalapit siya at may mga paru-parung nagliliparan sa aking tiyan...

We became friends...Scratch that!! Close friends!! as in Close!! People thinks minsan na kami na, parang magnobyo daw kami, I had hidden Feelings for him, I love the way he smiles, And everything stop when he looks into my eyes, nung time na sinabi niya na tutulungan niya ako, That he'll fix my broken heart, I didnt know what I felt.. Sumikip and dibdib ko sa pag-share ng story namin ni Kenneth, Pero masyadong bumilis ang tibok ng puso dahil sa sinabi niya.. So pumunta ako sa clinic..then dinala ako nila mom sa ospital, then The night came, he confessed pero i had learned my lesson, So I refused it..Nakita ko siya with another girl, making out kaya i decided na di na umattend sa party..Tinawagan ako ni Mom i informed her na umuwi ako, I was about to sleep when i remembered what happened, I was so Depressed, I was Sad, Terribly Sad, Inatake ako ulit sa Puso...Dinala ulit ako sa Hospital, And then the next day Dad told me were leaving...Di ako nakapag-paalam sa kanya, pero mabuti na rin na napaaga alis namin para makalimutan ko na siya...Pero he came all the way from the Philippines to New York para mag apologize....I know Inside I love him...Pero ayaw kong pumasok sa relationship...I dont want to hurt him, I dont want to see him one day na dadalaw sa kabaong ko

I wish wala nalang akong sakit

Masakit na nga puso ko sa kakamahal

May Diperensiya pa puso ko

Ano ba klaseng buhay tohh!!

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~~Jasper~~