Fixing a Broken Heart (Under Renovation)

~~I Love Her~~

Palabas na ako ng kotse, Its Gabriel to be exact (Yung car ni Jasper)

Im wearing a white gown..

with matching white beautiful shoes~

with a sweet smile on my face~

The other details are blurry but all I could see is my groom.. waiting for me in the altar, 

The music started..

(Play the video on the multimedia section) ------>

I can't help to smile... This is it.. This is the day i've been waiting for my entire life..

Everybody is smiling too, everyone I know is here~ And Jas, is the most handsome groom ive ever seen.. I see flashes of camera everywhere.. Nakaka-inip nga ehh, ang layo pa ng altar, Ehh Sabik na ako maging Mrs. Villafuerte...

I continue to walk..... but something is stopping me to make another step... Like there's an unknown force stopping me.. Next thing I knew I was falling...In a black hole... I can't see anything... All I could do is scream...

" No !! Jasper !!!! Wag!! Tulong!" I wake up, I got back to reality.....It was a f*cking dream, And I am glad it was just a dream... I looked around....

White walls, White curtains, White sheets, White bed... 

Its everything I see..Infact, Its the only thing I see, I feel weak, I want to get up but I can't..

Im in the hospital, Its been long since Hospitals and I hang-out..

Matagal-tagal narin ako hindi nakaka-pagpacheck-up

I think its been two years? hectic ng schedule eehh, Alam niyo na.. Sikat ehh

Then Jasper came rushing to my room "What happened? Ok ka  lang?" Tanong niya..

"Ok lang ako, i just had a bad dream" Sabi ko sa kanya "...What am I doing here?" I continued

"You collapsed in the middle of your rehearsals" 

"Ughh! Di pa namin natatapos ang routine, Bukas na ang Emerald Music Awards! Since ok na ako, I need to go back, I still have a performance bukas"

"Why did'nt you tell me?" Tanong niya, I think he already knows... "Where's the Doctor? Nominee pa naman  sana ako, sayang naman yung award na makukuha ko" Pag-iwas ko sa tanong niya "Your Manager already canceled your schedules, You need to rest"

"Ughh! Pero bukas nayung Awards---" Hindi niya ako pinatapos "The Awards was Three days ago" Ughh! Pandamay na sakit na to! Ive always wanted those awards since I became famous!  "Now.. Explain why didnt you tell me?"  He asked again.. Napayuko lang ako... "Why did'nt you tell me you have Arteriosclerotic heart disease?"

(MM;s Note:  Arteriosclerotic heart disease is also known as: Coronary heart disease and Coronary artery disease, If ever interested kayo sa Arteriosclerotic heart disease click niyo lang  ang external link for more infos)

"K-Kasi...----" Hindi ko masabi, wala rin naman akong dahilan na maisip.. "Kasi you did'nt ask?--"Bumukas ang pinto at pumasok ang Doctor, Wait! I know this Doctor, siya yung gumagamot sakin nung college..So it means..Im in the Philippines?

" How are you feeling?" Tanong ng Doctor sakin, Lumabas si Jasper ng kwarto ko.. "Uhm..I'm Ok, I guess?"  I told him,

"You must be wondering bakit nasa ospital ka ulit, Well it was during your rehearsal, sabi ng Nobyo mo, then you collapsed.. You know you shouldnt be doing things like that, Its dangerous... Luckily, hindi yung heart mo ang may problema, It was simple over-fatigue, You should rest for a while, mahirap na baka-susunod puso mo naman ang mag-kaproblema"

"So Ibig sabihin Doc, Hindi na ako makakapag-perform?"  Tanong ko sa Doctor "It doesn't mean you can't pero you shouldnt be tiring yourself, Yung may less movements, I- che-check pa namin mamaya ang kalagayan mo, For now, rest ka muna" 

"Congratulations nga pala~ Napagod yung boyfriend mo sa kaka-akyat sa stage nung Awards" Sabi pa nung Doctor, So I won huh? And siya pa ang kumuha ng awards ko? Ang sweet niya talaga~

Bumukas ulit ang pinto at niluwa ang mga magulang ko "Hi Bebe Jes! Are you feeling well na?"

"Yes Mom, Ok na ako" I replied "Hindi ka na namin pagagalitan kasi alam namin na pinagalitan ka na ni Jasper at may part 2 pa mamaya"

"Mommy naman ehh~! Teka nga..Bakit nasa Pilipinas ako?"

"Well, Kahapon sa Seoul ka pa naka-confine pero maraming tao ang gusto pumasok sa room mo at Hindi rin kami mag-kaintindihan ng doctor kaya inuwi ka namin dito.."

"Ahh! kaya pala" Napabuntong hininga lang ako "...Mom, Dad, Am I going to die now?"

"Dont think like that Jess, Marami pang nagmamahal sayo, We cant let you go that easily, Isa lang tong pagsubok and We all know na kaya mo toh, AJA! Fighting!" sabi ni dad, It totally made my day, sayang na-videohan ko sana yun, Its the first time nag Fighting siya~ Push Daddy! "Hahaha! Stop it Dad!" 

"Its nice to see you laughing again Jess, busy ka na kasi masyado! Mauna na kami, Saranghae"

"Saranghae Mom, Dad Ingat!" Mom and Dad gave me a flying kiss and left me all alone in this room,

"Hoy! Hospital crush mo talaga ako noh?"  Here I go again, ganyan ako pag bored kinakausap ang sarili..

"Hindi ang hospital ang may crush sayo, kung may mag-kaka-crush sayo malamang ako yun" Akala ko nag-salita ang walls si jasper pala

"Ahhh....Hi?" Talk about awkward... Feels ko yung awkwardness ngayon sa atmosphere "Kina-usap ako ni Tito Frank...Kayong tatlo lang daw ang nakaka-alam ng kondisyon mo..Si jane hindi rin daw alam na may sakit ka pala...pero Janessa..Gusto kong maintindihan... Bakit hindi mo sinabi saakin... Am I really that untrustworthy? sa rami na ng pinagsamahan natin..Ipaintindi mo sa akin...All those years..Bakit Hindi mo nasabi sa akin"

wala akong maisagot, ako mismo, Hindi ko masagot ang tanong niya.. I trust him, pero natatakot ako, na baka mawala siya sakin..

"Tell me Janessa. Did you trust me? Do you trust me?"

"Of course I trust you!" I can't help to shout now "natatakot ako na baka layuan mo ko dahil sa karamdaman ko!Akala mo madali lang itago sayo? Mahirap! Mahirap Jasper!---" I paused.. I-I can't breathe.. "H-Help! I can't breathe!" I tried to scream pero hindi ko magawa.. Sumisikip ang dibdib ko..I can't breathe

~•Jasper•~

Agad akong tumakbo at hinanap ang doctor ni Jessa

" Doc! Help! Nahihirapan siyang huminga!" Sabi ko sa doctor agad akong tumakbo pabalik sa room ni Jessa...She's looking at me...I can see her in her worst... She's suffering pero wala akong magawa Dumating na yung doctor at mga nurse I decided to step out of the room, hindi ko kaya makitang siyang ganun ang kalagayan...... I cant help to see her suffering....I feel like an Idiot dahil wala akong magawa... Kung pwede lang ako nalang ang mag-kasakit..I cant bear to watch her suffering..I love.her