Edward Elric x Reader One-Shots

Snowy Wonderland

(Trigger warning, this one-shot happens to touch on mental instability, depression, and suicidal thoughts. This is your one and only warning.)

~~~Reader's POV~~~

I lay in the grass, watching my soft breath billow and dissipate into the cool winter air. As I rested, calm and peaceful, snow began to fall from the grey sheet-ed clouds above. Beautiful white flakes drifted down and settled on my clothes and the ground around me; the stillness in the air making the scene all the more beautiful.

"(y/n)? (y/n) are you out here?" Edwards call drifted to my ears, though I made no move to call back. I was enjoying my solitude at that moment, and wished to keep it that way for just a few more moments. Edward must have come searching, as I heard his footsteps gently wandering toward me in the frost-laden field. "(y/n) you should come inside, it's freezing out here." Edward remarked, settling down beside me and running his hand along my exposed arm. 

His fingers brushed over the scars, and countless memories of cuts and tears filled my mind. I remembered the agony, the dark satisfaction as blood dribbled from my skin, the torment thrashing at my mind. It was all so vivid; as though I were reliving them all from a single touch of my husband. I remembered all the hate, hate for myself and the world around me. I thought I deserved it all. Every lash, every slash, every sharp blade dragging through my skin and spattering the bright red liquid on the floor and in the sink. Then I would bandage it up, pull over a long-sleeved shirt, and go to bed. Despite the stinging of my fresh wounds, the sharp reminder of what I'd just done, I would sleep. As such, sleep became my escape. Cut and sleep, writhe and scream; that was my life for over 2 years.

"(y/n)... (y/n) what's wrong, why are you crying?" I sat up, Edwards worried tone snapping me out of the daze and reminding me of where I was. I blinked, reaching up and touching my chilled face. I pulled away and examined the salty liquid on my fingers, watching as tiny crystals began forming in the biting air.

"I was only... remembering. What it was like to cut, how it was to watch my own blood run from my veins and over my skin. I found it pretty, beautiful even... Is there something wrong with me? Am I so twisted and horrible?" Tears pored from my (e/c) eyes, running down my cheek and splattering onto the grass.

"No, love, you are the most beautiful person I have ever met. You're wonderful and I couldn't ask for anyone more perfect than you... I love you so much." Edward gave me a light peck on the lips and pulled me into a hug, rubbing my back and allowing me to soak his shirt with my tears as I attempted to calm once again. I sniffled, finally able to halt my stream of tears and wipe my face. "There, better?" Edward asked softly, pulling back and pushing a lock of hair out of my eyes.

"I-I guess..." I murmured, mustering up a smile for my dedicated husband. I giggled when I noticed the snow flecks on his hair.

"What? What's so funny?" Edward smiled, gazing at me inquiringly.

"You've got a lot of snow in your hair." I snorted, keeling over with laughter as though it were the funniest thing in the world. And at that moment, it was.

"Oh haha, look at me, I've got snow in my hair." Edward rolled his eyes, chuckling. "You've got snow in your hair too, it makes it look sparkly."

"I figured, since it has been snowing this whole time." I closed my eyes, smiling up at the sky and shivering as the cold pricked at my skin.

"Come on (y/n), it's getting late and I'm gonna lose my fingers with how cold it is." Edward's friendly banter was something I loved. He may be a doof, but he's my lovely doof that makes me laugh at the stupidest things.

"Mmmm.... Alright, but you have to carry me." I smirked, blinking my eyes open and looking at him.

"Are you sure you want me to carry you? My right arm isn't exactly the warmest thing to be touching you." His warning against his automail didn't stop me, I just gave him a triple eyebrow and closed my eyes again. "Fiiine." He whined, scooping me up and carrying me back towards the house.

"Thanks Ed." I slurred sleepily, leaving a soft kiss on his cheek and letting my eyelids flutter shut. I was so tired...

"My lovely flower..." I heard Edward whisper, kissing my forehead just before I drifted to sleep.

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Mmm, apologies for the shortness. I had this blank when I came back to it, so I just let my imagination fly. This one's a bit more emotional and closer to my heart; due to the fact that it very much reflects the things I struggle with right now, so to speak. I hope you enjoyed it though, goodnight my dear readers.

~Jay