Scars (A One Direction Fanfiction)

Chapter 11: Now Or Never

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The drive to their apartment was really…interesting. Okay it was hilarious. We played ‘would you rather’ and Niall came up with the most weirdest and funniest ones. There was one where he asked if you would rather being sexual attracted to fruit or have Cheeto dust permanently on your fingers. Trust Niall to come up with that one.

“Here we are.” Liam said as he parked the car. It was a little cold outside but the sky was sprinkled with stars.

“It’s beautiful isn’t it?” Niall asks with a smile.

“Yeah.”

We made our way inside and Liam asked if we both wanted a hot chocolate which I didn’t turn down. Once he bought them over we sat down and began to talk about the events that had occurred earlier that night.

“What did that girl do to you?” Niall asked before taking a sip of his hot chocolate.

“She yanked on my hair.” 

“Why?” 

“I have no idea!”

We ended up putting on Finding Nemo (my favourite Disney movie) and if the boys made any kind of noise I would hit them with the pillow. It happened twice for Liam and Niall did it a few times on purpose just to piss me off.

“Okay well, I’m off to bed.” Niall said taking all our mugs to the kitchen.

“Goodnight Niall.” I say and give him a hug.

“Are you going to tell him now?” Niall whispered in my ear before he pulled away.

“It’s now or never.” I reply shrugging.

“Good luck.” He said and he went to bed.

It’s now or never, I remind myself. I start to go through the worst case scenarios in my head and start freak out. I have to take a couple of deep breaths to calm myself down.

“Liam I need to show you something.” I say sitting down.

“What is it?” He asks interested.

I take a deep breath in and push up my sleeves of my jump. I then remove my bandages and Liam gasps. He pulls me in and wraps his arms around me.

“Why didn’t you tell me before?” Liam asked sadly.

“I guess I didn’t know how... or when.” I reply tears stinging my eyes.

“You’re not mad are you?” I ask.

“No of course!” He replies and kisses my head.

“Why did you do this to yourself?”

I then begin to explain my depression and then how I overcame that dark stage of my life. He said he was proud of me that I used music to try and heal myself. Next I explained what had happened in the bathroom at Nando’s and why I ran away. I told him that I went straight to my bathroom to cut myself. By the end Liam was trying so hard not to cry but a few stubborn tears escaped his eyes.

“Does anyone else know?” Liam asked and I nod.

“Niall and Louis know.” I reply barely audible.

We just sat there not talking. We let silence fill the words that we were not able to speak.

“I draw too.” Liam blurted out.

“What?” I say shocked.

He let go of me and then rolled up the sleeves of his jacket. He showed me his wrists and there was faint white lines. My hand covered my mouth to try and stop me from crying but it didn’t. As soon as the tears began to form that’s when they fell. They were tears of sadness and happiness. I was sad because something or someone had caused him to do that and I was happy because he was the first person that I have met that is like me.

“No don’t cry.” Liam says as he realises that I am crying and he pulls me onto his lap.

“W-why?” I ask through my sobs.

“I spent the first 4 years of my life in hospital because I had lost a kidney. I had to have 32 injects a day to help with the pain but last year I found out that it was working again. During school I was bullied by a few people who were much older than me. I took up boxing classes just in case I ever needed to fight. But that was when I started to cut. I invited a lot of people to one of my parties but nobody ever turned up and that’s when it turned from one or two cuts to multiple cuts on both arms.

"Music played a big part in my life. I have been singing since I can remember so when I made it into the X Factor the second time that’s when my life took a turn for the better. And here I am now. Living the dream.” He says.

I turn my head to get a better look at him and a tear escapes his eye and rolls down his cheek. But before it could reach his jaw line I wiped it away with my thumb. I look into his eyes and he is staring intently into mine. Butterflies erupt in my stomach and I blush.

His eyes flicker to my lips back to my eyes and then back to my lips. I lean in and I know I shouldn’t but I do. Our lips connect in a soft kiss and I swear fireworks explode around us. I pull away just enough so our noses almost touch and I smile.

“Thank you.” I whisper.

“For what?” He asks his chocolate brown eyes sparking.

“For bring a new source of happiness back into my life.” I say and peck him the cheek. I see his smile widen before I stand up.

“Want to watch another movie?” I ask.

“I’d like that.”

I go through his movie collection and find The Notebook. I hold it up and we both laugh.

“You have The Notebook?” I ask with a grin plastered to my face.

“Ah yeah… I would love to say that my mum left it here but then I would be lying to you.” He replies and we both crack up.

I put it into the Blu-ray DVD player and I sit back down on the couch next to Liam. I look at the time on my phone and it was almost 11pm. I don’t think I will be able to make it to the end of the movie this time.