Pain doesn't go away, the heart doesn't heal easily.
I know, because even two years later the pains were still there. I remember it like it was yesterday. It felt like my whole body as made of broken glass. Whenever someone smiled I wanted to go punch the person in the face.
Why are you smiling? What was so funny?
The coldness had developed. This time everyone felt it. I didn't speak to anyone, the highest was one word sentences and that was only to Daniel. I stopped talking to my parents. I stopped having friends.
One day, we were eating dinner and I wasn't hungry, as usual. I was playing with the food. Until mum spoke up.
"Hadassah! Do you think you are a baby?! My friend eat up!" She yelled.
What right did she have to be yelling at me like that? What is the meaning of that?
I took a small spoon and forced myself to swallow it. Food was like a punishment these days. Didn't they get it?
"Hadassah do you know that you are disgusting?"
"Anna" My dad warned
"No, darling I would not take this. I'm telling you to eat, what's wrong with you?"
"Nothing's wrong with me!" I yelled back. I stood up and I didn't know that I flung the spoon at her. She dodged the spoon.
What's wrong with you, Hadassah?
My mum couldn't even believe me. She stared at me as if she didn't recognise the girl standing in front of her. Every one was too shocked to speak.
"Hadassah! Have you gone out of your mind! Are you stupid?! Look at this useless ingrate. You think you can get angry? Are you the only one? Good for nothing!" She yelled.
And I walked out.
The insults started, then. Everything was crashing at that point and they all pointed fingers at me for initiating the crash.
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I was at the hospital for months. The beating Coach Andrew gave me was serious, it gave me a permanent blur in my right eye. The fact that I didn't even have a perfect vision didn't help matters. I walked around with a reddened eye for weeks.
That's if I could even walk.
One day, dad walked into the hospital room, holding this huge teddy bear. He walked in with Daniel.
Even Daniel couldn't mend my heart right now.
"Hadassah, my dear daughter. We are sorry for what has happened to you." He started off.
I hated the pity in his eyes. He had absolutely no right to pity me! If he and mum weren't fighting none of this would have happened to me!
I looked at him, then. But I looked away quickly. I hated them pitying me.
"We just wanted to know, my daughter. Who did this to you? Ever since we found you unconscious in your room you refused to speak. Let us find who did this terrible tho you, and punish that person" He kept explaining.
I didn't speak. I faced the window.
It's not like I wanted to protect Coach Andrew, that heartless wrench! I hated anything that involves him. I didn't ever want to see him again.
"My daughter, speak up, we're listening"
I wanted him to leave this place. All of them disgust me.
"If you don't speak then how would we find this person now?" He sighed. Yes, he gave up.
"Well, Danny said he wants to give you this teddy. We bought it before coming here"
