No Commitment (Completed) [R-18]

7 : Cafeteria

Cafeteria

I've been struggling on my bed. Para akong nasasakal na hindi ko lubos mawari ang dahilan. I've been subjected in a scene I don't even understand. I have been standing in between two man who ought to fight with each other. Though I may not see it clearly, anger and fury filled the whole place. My vision went blurry, and I can no longer see the images in my vision, masyado na itong nabalutan ng usok na hindi ko mawari kung saan nanggaling.

Minulat ko ang aking mga mata ng mapagtanto kong nakatulog na pala ako. I've been struggling in my bed, alone. Napabangon ako ng lubusan thinking of the dream I've just had. It wasn't my typical dream at all. My dreams were not about things like that.

I rose up from bed walking my way through the kitchen. Nauhaw ako bigla sa panaginip ko. Napatingin ako sa orasan na nakasabit sa may malapit sa flower vase. It's still twelve o'clock in the evening. I've just slept for almost an hour. As much as I wanted to go back to sleep, hindi na gustong pumikit ng mga mata ko. It seems that my sleepiness drifted off away just like that. I opened my loptop and logged in to email account. I was scrolling down my new messages when a familiar message popped out my screen.

" Zeke Andrew Montenegro" I whispered to myself. The man I was once so much inlove with. The man I saw my future with. And the man who left his bride waiting for him.

I thought twice of reading his message. Saglit pa akong napatingin sa mensahe niya bago ko napagdesisyunang basahin.

" I'm missing you so much, Cassidy. I'll soon come and win you back" It was his message. I suddenly want to curse at him.

How dare him for saying those words to me like nothing had happened. Ang kapal din ng mukha niyang sabihin pa 'yon sa akin. He doesn't even know how much pain and heartaches he's brought to me the moment he decided on dumping me on our wedding. Funny to think about it. He must be waiting for his bride to arrive. But in my case, the bride has been waiting for her groom to show up. And she just waited for nothing. The groom didn't show up but the bride waited. The bride patiently waited for her groom until reality consumed her patience that her groom wouldn't come anymore. Hanggang sa gumising na lang ako isang araw, ako na pala ang bride na hindi sinupot ng groom. Nakakatanga lang isipin, everytime I thought of it, isang tanong lang ang naiisip ko.

Have I done wrong? Am I still not enough? What lacks me? Ano ang kulang sa akin?

Those are the questions I wanted to ask him for leaving me. For dumping me without even a word, without even an explanation.

I choose to ignore his message and not reply on it. There's no use on doing that. The damage has been done. You can no longer fix a damage that easy. It will always leave a scar on it. There's no one waiting for him already. I've been able to move on from him in the first place and explanations from him wouldn't change anything. It won't change my mind anymore.

I logged out my account. There's no hell I would reply on his message.

" Stop thinking about it George" I thought to myself. This is the perks of being alone. Kinakausap mo na ang sarili mo.

Morning came and I've decided to go on jogging. As they say, healthy lifestyle is a must. You need exercise once in a while. Di kalauna'y may sumabay sa akin. It was Chad.

" Hey there, sexy" Bungad agad sa akin ni Chad. A word from his so early inthe morning.

" Hey there too, Handsome" I greeted him back. We jogged like we do it daily.

We jogged through out the streets within our place. It's tiring yet refreshing. Nakakapagod nga talaga ang magjogging ngunit sulit din lang ang lahat ng pagod mo.