No Commitment (Completed) [R-18]

19 : Resignation

Resignation

Halos hindi ako mapakali ng makarating na ako sa opisina. I am well clothed like the usual but what makes the difference is the fact that I am here with a resignation letter at hand.

Buong gabi ko din 'to pinagisipan. It's about time I make the right thing. I cannot take it anymore. The tension is burning me, it's eating me alive. And the only way to loose all these inhibitions is to let go of the man you had once loved together with the man your heart beats for now.

It's not me choosing who's best or who's greater in my heart. It's about me deciding for what is right. I cannot deny the fact that I am hurting inside. I would lie if if I tell you that everything's okay. That I will be okay. That I could move on after this. Lahat 'yun kasinungalingan dahil ang totoo niyan, hindi ko din alam kung saan ko itutuloy 'tong buhay ko. Saan ako magsisimula ulit. Kailangan ko pa bang ituloy?

Bakit ba ang pagibig mahirap bigkasin ng puso. Mahirap intindihin ng isip. At mahirap din panindigan.

Nakasalubong ko si Lena pagkabukas ng lift.

" Cassidy, ang aga mo naman ata ngayon" Bungad niya sa akin. Ang aga ko nga naman.

Because I'm about to resign. I thought to myself

" May aasikasuhin lang. Andyan na ba si Mr. Alcantara?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

" Oo, hindi nga ata siya umuwi kagabi. Dun na siya natulog sa opisina niya" She said.

" Ganon ba. Sige, kailangan ko kase siyang makausap ngayon eh" I told her. Tinanguan niya lamang ako bago muling nagpaalam din sa akin.

I breathed in before finally entering the CEO's office. Bumungad agad sa akin ang mga mata niyang animo'y parang alam na niya ang dahilan ng pagsulpot ko sa opisina ng ganito kaaga.

" Goodmorning, Sir" I smiled. He didn't even smile back at me. Nakatayo lamang siya habang pinagmamasdan ang kilos ko.

" Start working, Ms. Marquez" Malamig niyang saad. Agad naman akong lumapit sa kanya.

" Sir actually, I'm here for something important." I said. I slowly pulled out my resignation letter and placed it on his table.

" That piece of paper isn't even important, George Cassidy. Take it back. I can't read another shit right now. I'm too tired" Saad niya sabay talikod sa akin bago tuluyang pumasok sa private office niya.

Lies and lies, Carlos Vincent. I thought to myself

Sinundan ko siya.

" Wait, Vincent." Saad ko sa pangalan niya. Nilingon naman niya ako.

Ayaw niyang basahin, fine! I'll formally tell him.

" I resign" I calmly said.

His facial expressions says he didn't care.

" I resign, sir" Ulit kong muli but still he didn't care.

" Get back to work, Ms. Marquez. Make sure to give me a report afterwards" He authoratively said.

" Carlos Vincent Alcantara" I called his name.

" Yes, Ms. Marquez" He said coldly.

" I RESIGN!" I made it clear as water.

The moment I spoke it for the third time, I saw him look at me with eyes focused straight on me.

" You want me to put this in the trash bin or do you want me to tear it apart" Ang lamig ng pagkakasabi niya sa akin ng kunin niya yung resignation letter ko.