You've made your mark on me (Snowbarry)

it gets better

Warning mentions of rape ⚠

The interagetion a had been hard on both of them barry had gripped caitlin's hand tightly as she spoke about the experience and tried to stay strong.

When it was over they left that room as fast as they could but they bumped into captin sign.

"Allens!" He exsclaimed

Caitlin winced in suprise "take the next two days off if you like"

Barry nodded and thanked him.

On the drive back home caitlin sat staring out of the window looking at the scenary go by when they got home barry started making them something to eat.

Caitlin had stated quite the whole time.

"Please Don't do this" barry suddenly said after way to much silance.

"Do what?" Caitlin questioned.

"Lock your emotions away cait... I can feel them you know that so please... talk to me"

Caitlin took a deep breath in and gripes barry hand "I thought I was going to die" caitlin mumered

"I know but..."

"No barry this was when it happened" caitlin said in a shaky voice.

"You don't have to tell me" he replied then kissed the top of her hand.

"Yes I do" she responded flatly.

"I thought I was going to die he told me...that he would stab me if I didn't...do as he said, if I screamed" tears rolled down her cheeks "he said if I told anyone he would kill everyone I loved" she started sobbing into his chest.

Barry felt himself crying as well.

"I'm sorry I will stop If you want" caitlin said looking into his eyes.

"Its ok carry on" he encouraged her

"Of course I kept it a secret but a few weeks later people began to grow suspicious I started taking self defence classes that's how I got away from that guy on the street earlier when it all came out they asked me things like why didn't I tell anyone? Why didn't I fight back? Eventually it got to much and I screamed at my mother for asking me those questions"

Caitlin paused for a minuet to see the look on barrys face she could tell he was taking in every word she was saying.

"Thats when my parents decided I was broken so they sent me to a pheripist I didn't tell her anything though she was always asking how I felt and I would always say 'I'm fine' eventually she gave up on me everyone did as long as I didn't talk about it because I thought it would go away that's when my parents moved us to central city they were fed up of there friends asking why there daughter went to self defence classes why there was police in our house that day" caitlin sighed

"When I moved here I started high school acted like nothing happened I still missed my friends but soon enough I met ronnie and then cisco things got better I never wanted to find my soul mate I didn't plan on it... on you"

Barry tightened his grip on her "there's something I need to tell you" barry mumbled then dropped a kiss on her head.

"About what happened to your parents" caitlin whispered

"How did you..."

"I could just...feel it" caitlin sighed and shifted on his lap "so what is it?"

"I told you they died but I didn't say how" barry breathed (I honestly can't remember if barry told her anything about his parents)

"They were murdered break in gone wrong well that's what they told me but I...I was there I saw that man kill my mum and dad he... didn't know I was there he didn't know I saw...I hid under the table and...I..I watch as my mother screamed I couldn't do anything about it...I was helpless  I remeber watching as he stabbed my mother I remember her screams as she slowly fied but i couldnt do anything about it i just sat there frozen my dad went to help my mother thats when he...he shit my dad when my dad fell to the floor he saw me hidding and mouthed my name...the killer left and i phoned the police...I was so scared cait... so. So. Scared"

Barry began sobbing into caitlin's shoulder "its ok he's gone now" caitlin soothed.

Barry clung to her shirt and she let him she knew he needed this he has kept all of his emotions locked up for years like she had.

This is why they found each other so they could finally let go.

Sorry this chapter is really really REALLY deep and depressing.

And if you do remember what I said happened to Barry's parents tell me and I will change it.