imvu ❥ dan howell

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Messsage to DannyBoi:
what the hell is wrong with you?

Message to DannyBoi:
were you just not going to tell me? I don't understand your train of thought.

Message to DannyBoi:
this is bullshit

Although she knew she'd come off as angry, she was anything but angry. She was worried because she didn't know how much time Dan had left that he could handle. She was scared because she knew the doctor told her he could die. She was disappointed that he couldn't tell her the truth. There were so many emotions, yet only cold anger spilled into words that she sent to the one who only expressed the opposite to her.

She continued to walk down the beach where she and Dan had their first date. It was broad daylight, so the lights from the pastel shops were off, but the music still rang throughout the air. But she wasn't listening. She just kept thinking like she always did. She thought about when they walked hand in hand, the sand in between their toes. Or when they got into the photobooth and Dan leaned in for a kiss that now hung on a bent photostrip in her room. She wanted the good times back and to flood her mind, but instead she could only remember the truth.

Dan was dying because Dan had cancer. Dan has cancer because Dan smokes. Dan smokes because Dan is addicted. It is a chain reaction of lost hope.

Message from DannyBoi:
please come home

Home. His place wasn't her home, because her home was hundreds of miles away. But the more she told herself that Dan's apartment wasn't her home, the more she felt a belonging there. Maybe it was because she had no other place to go, or maybe it was because he was there. He was there, waiting, and begging her to come home.

Message to DannyBoi:
okay

She sent the message and walked back to the front entrance of the boardwalk, taking a seat on the edge of a pastel pink bench.

Message to Asheikei:
come pick me up? I need a ride back to Dan's

Message from Asheikei:
I'm at the ice cream shop on the boardwalk. Give me five minutes and I'll be there.

Message to Asheikei:
get me some?

Message from Asheikei:
... what kind?

Message to Asheikei:
cookie dough??

Message from Asheikei:
only bc you're sad :(

She smiled the tiniest bit and thanked Ashley for buying her icecream, waiting for her to come back while the sound of seagulls flew over her head.

Like a bird, so peaceful and carefree, flying away anywhere they want, she had remembered.

"Here you go, dude," Ashley said, making Audi jump slightly. "Oh, sorry," she laughed lightly as she handed her the creamy dessert in her hand.

"Thanks, Ashley."

"No problem, but let's get on with it before it gets dark."