Gotta get out {Aston Irwin fanfic}

Chapter 1- Disgust and pity

I walk around everyday not caring, not listening, my grades have dropped really low. I have failed the eleventh year so i decided to just drop out and move out so i can start an early life alone.

Alone.

I really liked that idea. Now i don't have to get phone calls from Gavin's foster parents reminding me everyday that it was me who killed him.

They were right. The thought made my heart ache like it has been stabbed repeatedly. The rest of my eleventh year went really bad. Everyone liked Gavin, everyone except for the ones who bullied me. Now everyone knows it is my fault.

They look at me in disgust, and just walk away.

I deserved this. God wants me to live with killing him. He wants me to with it, and live i will.

But if it was me who was dead, Gavin would give anything to get me back, and here i am moving on. He wouldn't do this. He would fight to get his best friend back.

I am not as strong as him, i don't have as much faith as he did, i didn't believe as much as he did.

My mother tells me that i am not me anymore. She reminds me every time i see her. She looks upon me with pity and yet i still see disgust in her eyes.

I went back home the other day to get the rest of my stuff so i could completely move into my apartment. I walked into a room that had white walls, the walls were bare. Not a single poster or painting

hung on the walls. The floor was wooden, it had scuffs on it which made the room ten times older then it actually was.

Everything was exactly the way i left it. My desk was in the corner of the room, my bed pushed up against the wall along with a window behind it, my bookshelf is on the other side of the room filled with the books that came to my liking.

My dresser was on that same wall. So many memories in this room, right here. It hurt me so bad just thinking about it.

It broke my heart just standing here now. This is the reason why i avoided coming back here for so long.

I walked in as did my father and went straight toward my dresser so we could take it to the truck. I walked over to it abducted picked up one side while my father picked up the other. I strained while we tried to carry it down the stairs. We finally got off of the last step and walked outside the front door.

I inspected the side that i had seeing a small engravings of what i really didn't want to say.

Gavin loves you

The words made me flinch and drop my side of the dresser which made its leg break right off.

My dad looked at me. Pity and disgust.

~later~

We managed to load up everything i needed and take it to my private jet. The pilot was going to take me wherever i wanted to go. It took a minute for me to decide.

I thought about where Gavin always wanted to go. What he wanted to see. What he wanted to do.

And that's when i realized where i wanted to go and where i planned on staying for a long time.

" Sydney, Australia" i said to the pilot.

And before i knew it, we were already in the air, heading toward Australia.

A|N- Hiyaa!!!! How was it? good or bad!? Leave it in a comment. Sorry if it is boring now, but it us always boring in the beginning!! Leave names in comments also!!! Ilysm!!!

- Blue