Raising Jesse

NO

When she came through the small trail , she wasn't expecting to
see this much i could see it in her soft eyes .

Joel ? Her voice cracked

Lucii i said smiling

Her small little body came crashing next to mine

She let out small cries

Joel I'm so sorry she said

It took me by suprise but i asked why

Because i gave up on us when you left with Amanda

I lifted up her chin so our eyes met

Im sorry i wanted to protect you , jesse, Joey and the people around us but i hurt you and the kids the most .

But why did you leave ? She said pain showing through her eyes and her bottom lip was quivering. 

I pulled her to my chest and stroked her hair

I breathed in and exhaled

Because Amanda would ruin you your career , and the others not only cnco but yoandris , she threatened me using the kids . I wanted to protect you but I hurt you , jesse, and Joey. 

She looked up and said somthing that shocked me .

Joel will you marry me ?

I made my face as serious as possible

Lucii I'm sorry but NO
Oh okay i understand she said looking away

A tear slid down her cheek I lifted her chin up and i brushed off the tear with my thumb .

Hey come let's eat,

She nodded and followed me.

I made sure to put in the small delicate ring inside a Ferrero Rocher wrapper i placed in the middle of the chocolates .

We sat down and i handed her the box .

We talked but she would get chocolates and would be so close to grabbing the one with the ring and would miss it .

I finally gave up she had one chocolate one the one in the middle .
So I grabbed it .

Lucii ?

Yea ? She said trying to sound like herself but i knew she was sad about me saying no .

You wanna know why the middle chocolate is so special ?

Why ? She said sounding curious , well find out for yourself i said handing her he chocolate.

She unwrapped it and that's when she saw it the ring

I kneeled down

Lucii will you marry me ? This time i won't leave i promise

She giggled and hugged me .

Yes I will joel,  i will marry you a thousand times if i have to .

She was crying and pulled to my chest and hugged her .

I love you , I'm whipped but i don't care i want us to be a family,  to have many more kids together .

Joel nooo not more kids please

Why I asked sounding confused .     

Because just being the four of us is enough .

Well okay may i ? I said sticking my hand out for the ring

I slipped on to her finger it getting on perfectly.

I love you she said kissing me .

I love you too .

What's this?  She said looking at the small book sitting alone .

Open it

She gasped as she saw every photo we ever took together ever since she became jesses baby sitter .

She was crying again

Joel why are you setting me up like this

I laughed and smiled

Because i love you from the moon and back .

I promise I won't let anyone get between us if you promise the same she said holding my hand

I promise I said kissing her .

We ate and not soon later it began to rain .

Joel we should go inside she said .

I smirked and pulled out my speaker who said the fun is over ?

What ? She said confused

Let's dance i played our song

Omg joel she said

I rember we danced this song when we first got together i said looking in her eyes

She smiled as we danced till the end .

I love you i want to be with you till we get old and our watch our kids grow .

Me too she said kissing my lips .

her lips soft as ever .

Her new look made her look nice

But she was beautiful with her natural look .

I never want this moment to end i said leaning down .

After the song was over i piggy backed her back to her house .
I changed she gave me my tshirt  and some sweats i had left here .

After she finished showering we both cuddled in bed .

It felt good to have her by my side . There was this feeling of safety of never wanting her to leave my side no matter what .

At least i get to enjoy sleeping with my love tonight.