Raising Jesse

say yes

I was with jesse currently at disneyland .
My phone keept on getting some wierd messages from random numbers , this saying

Hes not gonna be yours for long

You cant force him to be with you

You fat whore

You are a whale

Go die

Hes gonna be mine again

Kill yourself

This didnt make me feel anybetter , lately ive been really self concious about these texts especially because of one text that said

You will never be able to replace amanda , joels using you to forget her , your too ugly you cant compare to her beauty .

And they were right
Beig me i googled up pictures of amanda
She was, well FLAWLESS

she was skinny she had light pale skin that made her blue/green eyes pop out , plump peach pink lips , perfect eye length nose length . She was rich came from a wealthy family , compared to me i was nothing .

I had plain brown eyes , my black hair was now mostly brown it changes with the seasons i dont know why. I was fat really fat amanda probaby weighed less than 100 and i wanted to weigh less than 100

I currently weighed 120 but i wasnt good enough , for me and for joel .

Jesse and i were walking around disney when she pulled me towards a guy my age dressed as peter pan

Well hello there beautiful little girl whats your name he smiled at her he was cute , but he wasnt as hot as joel .

My name is jesse she smiled ,
My daddy and uncles are gonna sing here later today

Oh really he said he looked at jesse closely

Hmm you must be joels daughter

Yup

I gigled as jesse struck a model pose

The guy looked up to me and smiled

Your honor he said and bowed

I also bowed and jesse giggled

Whats your name he said slyly

Lucii

Ahh your joels girlfreind

Yes iam i said proudly ,

Wheres the baby ?

Oh joeys with his dad and uncles

So hes gonna be a singer ? He held his chin

Yea he is jesse said

Lucii can i take a picture with my boyfreind peterpan

Yea sure

Peterpan kneeled down to jesses height and they took the picture .

We went walking again me and jesse boarded the tea cups where we both had fun , we got onto the rocket ships , and the micheal jackson ride.

Then we went on the buz ride . We also got on the starwars ride , then it was time for us to go to the front of the castle where the stage was at . Me and jesse went thirty minutes ahead because it was gonna get really really crowded .

To our surprise it was already crowded

The stage was set up differently this time

It was somthing id never seen before there was a red carpet and stairs leading to the end of the stage there was ropes to keep fans from geting on the carpet when i found yoyo he was in the front left side of the crowds and the rope had been stopped right there . Yoyo led me to the front i was gonna sit in the back but he said no .