Locker 1583//S.W

3.8

•••6am, Christmas Morning•••

"Mommy" Aidan was stood with Teddy in my door way. "It's Christmas!" He gasped. "Come on then" I sighed slipping on Nate's zipper hoodie.

I lifted Luna out of Aidan's arms. They boys sprinted down to the tree and squealed in delight.

"He came!" Aidan said. They started opening their presents and Luna and I started opening hers.

They had opened their presents and I watched on happily. "These presents are from me!" Aidan said bringing in a bag.

"Ted, mom, Lu and this is Dad's" he said teddy opened his presents, a pair of head phones, an iPod and a CD.

"So you can listen to daddy whenever you want" teddy smiled widely. And immediately wrapped his arms around Aidan.

"That's so sweet Aidan" I said "thankyou bubby" Teddy said clutching the cd to his chest.

The rest of the day went by fast we ate our Christmas dinner. the kids lazed around with their gifts with movies playing in the background that I was watching.

"Dad" Aidan grinned hugging Nate. "Merry Christmas buddy" Nate smiled Aidan handed him the gift. "For me?" Aidan nodded climbing back onto the couch next to me.

"Wow thanks dude!" Nate said it was a frame with a picture of the two together.

"I love it!" He said he seemed truly happy with the gift. "You're welcome" Aidan said yawning.

"Did you have a good Christmas?" I asked "yeah I ate way too much though" he shrugged "You've been smoking" I said getting annoyed.

"No" he said sitting down laughing to himself. "Boys go brush your teeth I'll be up in a second" I said and waited for them to go.

"It's pathetic, to think I could trust you" I chuckled. "You promised you'd quit that shit for me, for the sake of us"

"Well you still love Sam so maybe when we both can agree on something we both can stop" he said. "Really? How come every argument we have revolves around him?"

"Because you want him more than me!" "I'm going and letting you calm the fuck down"

I stormed off to the bathroom with Luna in one arm and my phone in the other dialling Nash's number.

"We're staying with Nash tonight" I said Aidan gave me a funny look and Ted remained the same emotionless kid.

"Go get a few things" I said and kept looking out for his car.

"Thankyou for this, I know it's Christmas and having us stay the night is probably not what you expected on Christmas" I said.

"Lana, it's all good squad sticks together" he said pulling up at his house.

I got the kids settled watching home alone and I sat with Nash in the kitchen drinking a hot chocolate.

"You know I'm glad we sorted things out" I said. "Me too, I'm sorry I was such an ass in high school" he said "it's all good I was just like you used to be until i got close with Sam." I said.

"I'm glad we've both changed" he said "I'm digging the new Nash, especially the hair." I said we laughed lightly taking another sip.

"Sam's coming back" I said staring into space. "Nate's always arguing with me" "and Teddy is struggling and I can't do this anymore" I said.

"What are you talking about? You're Lana Dallas you can do whatever you want" he said. "You don't have to worry about Sam" he said I brushed off the comment and sighed.

"I'm exhausted" I yawned "go to bed I'll stay down here with boys" he said "no it's your bed" I said "it's only for tonight" he said.

"I don't want to sleep with out the kids." I said. "Well I'll take them up" he said going to pick both boys up.

"Fine, you win" I sighed following him up with Luna clinging to my chest.

"Night Nashy" I said "night, Lana" he planting a kiss on my head. I fell asleep with my sons cuddled into my sides and my daughter on me.

•••Boxing Day•••

Nash drove me home in the late afternoon just as it started to Snow. taking the kids out whilst I attempted to fix things with Nate.

"Nathan!" I shouted politely walking into my home. "Lana" he yawned coming out of the bathroom. He'd just had a shower and his hair was freshly tied in a man bun.

"Can we sort this out?" I asked. "Yeah" he said we sat on the couch. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have snapped about the weed" I said.

"Ill to stop" he said. "Do what you want" I said "I can't control you" I said.

"I don't want anything more than you to be mine, I know deep down you don't want me" he said. "Nate please don't start this" I breathed. "It's true though" he said.

"All you ever seem to do is being Sam into this? Sam's gone he's not coming back as much anyone wants him back he's probably in the Bahamas banging some model" I said "yeah but you wish she was you."

"Maybe this is your fault, maybe Sam didn't want to put up with all this arguing" he stood up raising his voice.

"Sam and I never fuxking argued, he never brought up my exes, he never got hooked on to drugs"  I said shouting back.

"You drive me insane" he hissed and slammed the door.

I was left alone in the house waiting for either Nate or my kids to come in the snow was coming down pretty hard.

It got to 5pm before the kids got back. "You gonna be alright?" He asked "I'll be fine Nate's at his moms tonight and I'll probably just watch old shows." I said.

"Need anything just give me a call" he said and left. I closed the door behind him and teddy had already taken off upto his window spot.

"How about tomorrow we play out in the snow?" I asked Aidan whilst preparing the leftovers for dinner.

"Yeah will dad be coming?" He asked "no, I don't think so" I said "oh" he said setting out the table.

"Can you go get your brother I'm about to dish up" I said. Teddy came down with his headphones on and a huge smile on his face. "Happy?" I asked he nodded sitting at the table.

Teddy ate all his dinner this time and slowly sipped his apple juice. "Take them off at the table" Aidan said snatching the headphone off his head.

"No" teddy screamed hitting Aidan. "Get off!" Aidan said pushing him off. As the boys started fighting Luna burst into tears. I picked her up trying to soothe her.

"Stop it!" I yelled loud enough for the boys to become startled and start crying too. I rushed to the door as the door bell rang.

I opened the door with a screaming baby in my arms. I took one look at who stood before me.

"Sam"