Locker 1583//S.W

4.4

We stayed in the hospital overnight, Nicole came and kept us company and Annie and Ben were having Luna for a few days.

"Did you find that new house?" She asked trying to take my mind off the fact my Alana has a slim chance of surviving.

"Uh yeah I did it's kinda far from here though but my assistant got a team to decorate and furnish everything" I said.

She nodded "right this is getting stupid I need to go in there" she said. "Me too" I said peering through the window. "Nash" she said furrowing her brows.

He came over. "Sam I came for the kids" he said. "So you can stay here and not worry about them" he said I nodded but teddy refused and stayed laid in my arms.

"I'll leave the lil man with you" he said and Aidan put his hand in Nash's. "Bye dad love you" Aidan said. "I'll give you updates on Alana" I said to Nash as he walked off with Aidan.

"Shall we sneak in? She's our best friend" Nicole said making sure the coast was clear. Out of impulse I pulled open the door and gestured for her to come in.

"I swear to god Lana if you don't wake that ass of yours up I'm eat all the pizza in Nebraska" Nicole said taking a hold of her hand. "Look daddy I told you! She put her ring on" teddy said pointing to the band on her left finger.

"That's why they think we're engaged" I muttered to myself scanning her limp pale body laid before me.

I remained staring at the lifeless beautiful woman I fell for all those years ago. "We'll give you a minute alone" Nicole patted my shoulder taking Teddy out of the room.

"I never knew how much I needed you until I found out you weren't mean to love me, it's true nevertheless you deserve someone just like Cameron because really the high school geek isn't good enough for someone so smart and beautiful like you, you've become such a generous, kind, loving woman since you were 16 and if you let go now I don't know what to do. We have three perfect healthy children together yet i don't know the first thing about two of them, how am I supposed to raise them with out you guiding me, it's like I'm constantly in pitch black world and I'm trying to find my way you're the light I need to follow the right path and not walk into walls and off cliffs, you're smile makes my stomach flip every single time and if you stop fighting I'll be done for.

I've got us the perfect house like you've always imagined it to be just waiting for you to wake up. There's probably no way you can hear me and I'm just talking to myself but if you don't wake up in the next 2 weeks they're turning the machine off, and I won't ever hear you say my name again or say I love you because all I want is for you to just say you it was some big prank and hug me like you usually do. I just want to feel you kiss me back knowing I'd do anything and everything for you,

God Alana don't you give up on me, I don't know the first thing about changing girls diapers! I always wanted to have at least two more kids with you and you only I love you so much we all do babe so open your blue eyes and smile" I cried kissing her hand softly.

"Mr wilkinson you're not supposed to be in here" a doctor came in "can I just have this moment?" I asked.

"I'm sorry sir" she said and pulled me away.

I plopped myself on the same uncomfortable bench that made your butt hurt after two minutes.

"Don't cry daddy momma will fly high with the angels like grandma did." Teddy brushed away my tears and hugged me tightly.

"Sam I've gotta go back to the girls but I'll come tomorrow okay?" Nicole said I nodded holding teddy silently crying into his pyjamas.

And that's when I realised my whole world was about to come crashing down. The love of my life was about to be taken to the angels, yet another one of the most important women in my life seized away from me and I'll be left raising three kids alone.

***

I lost track of time but it was late enough for outside to be dark and Cameron and team showed up. "man just kill me already" I said.

"Sam, we came to apologise, we shouldn't have driven you away like that, you'll be glad to know Nate's about to go" Cameron said. "I didn't want Nate gone I wanted everyone to be friends, I wanted everything to work out" I sighed.

"Because that's what Alana wanted she's been wanting that for almost ten years" I said keeping my voice quiet.

"You're right" he said his eyes on the window. "Boys, wait here reacquaint yourselves with Sam and my nephew" Cameron said.

The boys sat either side of me "I'm sorry bro" Matt said. "Us too" they all said. "She's not going to wake up" I groaned.

"Come on you gotta have faith" I shrugged. "She had a pretty nasty accident" I said. "We know, we're always here for you all" Colby said.

Cameron had got Nate here. "Listen, I'm sorry about everything, I should never have come between you and Lana" Nate said.

"None of us should, I want my best friends back, and maybe we could all work together? Those guys of yours them too all of us should come together and help Lana when she wakes up" I shook his hand.

"If she wakes up" I mumbled. Everyone came for support. My guys, the rest of Cameron's squad Madison and Maggie, everyone even my sisters and brother.

Finally we had got everyone together and we were all at peace with one another. We just needed that one more person to make us complete.

Alana Dallas.