as sweet as CAKE - kendal- cara-

Dinner

- caras pov-

I stood on the balcony looking at kendall, I knew she was torn and didn't know what to do.

I knew things would never be the same even if she did forgive me..

every time I took too long to text back, got home later then I said I would, talked to some one for longer then usual at a party or something

she would always question things, because she no longer trusted me

" I'm harpers parent too" I said " I know that.. I cant take her away from you..i wont do that to you" she said softly

this made me feel even more guilty, I cheated on her I know I deeply hurt her. she was protective and jealous naturally. some one cheating on her was her worst fear and I made that fear come true. and even after that she didn't want to hurt me and take harper away from me

I had yet to meet harper I saw her though. even as a new baby I knew she had kendalls stunning features.

kendall still stood there thinking about everything.

" can I see harper?" I asked she looked at me " she is sleeping right now-but sure" she said

I walked into the bed room over to her crib

she was sleeping on her back with her arms and legs sprawled out. she was so small and vulnerable..

i smiled it was a indescribable joy that i felt, i was her mom

she had a lot of hair for a baby her age i reached into the crib lightly grazing her cheek with my finger

she was so soft

tears welled in my eyes, i missed her first months of life because of one night i barely remembered.

i watched harper sleep peacefully. i missed living in this apartment with kendall

i used to be so happy waking up with kendall making her breakfast then spending the day with her, then some times going to party's with her and our friends only to come back home drunk and happy, then do it all again the next day until we had work.

i wasn't happy i went out at night to forget about kendall and how she left me. i flirted with girls and guys to feel better about myself, because guilt tore me apart

i could watch her for hours she was so adorable i had a daughter..

" she has your eyes" i herd kendall say she walked up behind me with her arms crossed " really?" i asked happily " exactly the same shade too" she said with her hand smoothing the little hairs on her head

" she has chubby cheeks" i said looking down at harper

kendall paused she was leaning on the crib looking at her i think she was deciding if she should talk to me or not

" she is constantly hungry" she said softly I smiled down at the peace full girl

" your still her mom.. you have just as much right to her as I do" she said more telling her self that

" and this is your apartment originally-" I cut her off " Kendall it's yours too.. stay " I said

" I just.. I don't know if I'm ready to forgive you. That much" she said

" I want you to see her as much as I do- how about you sleep in the bedroom I'll sleep in the guest room"Kendall said

" no I'll sleep in the guest room Kendall" I said

She turned on a moving night light thing for Harper just incase she did wake up she would be entertained.

I looked at Harper for a little bit longer then went into the guest room it was the room across from the nursery