as sweet as CAKE - kendal- cara-

Love magazine

- Kendall's pov-

I woke up I forgot what happened at first
But the smell of caras light perfume reminded me

I had my head on her chest and our legs intertwined. i sighed contently

all the things that have happened between me and cara made me realize  how quickly thing's can change, it made me appreciate this more.

i was laying with cara i had my arm across her stomach she her her arm around me, i cant count how many nights i stayed away with tear stained cheeks wanting everything to go back to normal.

but no matter how relaxing cara was, i knew this wasn't normal..

or this wasn't how it used to be. it scared me to think hat we may never get to that point.

we made a lot of progress last night, but i know no matter how many times i tell cara harry is irrelevant to me she wont ever fully believe me.

it all seemed so endless and uncertain.

it hurt even more to think back to when we were so happy, when we would have nights like last night but better. i may never get the chance to see that cara again.

i should have handled this whole situation differently, when she told me at my parents house that she cheated i wouldn't have forgiven her but i should have realized she was so drunk and sad. she doesn't even remember it..

but i wasn't drunk when i slept with harry, i was sad though... i don't think i have ever been that sad. i still remember it as much as i try to forget it all..that's the difference between what cara did and what i did, she doesn't remember if it was proper sex. i was sober when i was with harry i remember everything and i know that what i did is worst then what cara did.

i thought about last night. i felt my face blush as i remembered her body.  I'm convinced  the look of lust that takes over her eyes and face when she is in control is one of the hottest things on earth. it motivates me when i feel her watching me with those eyes.

honestly i forgot how great she really is, she genuinely enjoys giving me pleasure and expects nothing in return. not to say that I'm not the same. i just haven't ever seen lust like i have seen it with cara.

she was so much better then the boys i wasted time with because they had big names or had a lot of friends.  its not that they were all that bad. they were just un-steady, and  in-controllable. and over all horny

their lust was nothing like caras she controlled herself she waited and knew when to do things and when not to.. her lust was wild and fire filled. The way she looked at me last night reminded me how much I'm attracted to her. That's how this all started that's how we started, her staring at me when we met each other. That wasn't the burning sharp lust I saw last night but it was something.

I wasn't able to finish my thought I felt caras fingers glide around on my waist it tickled and gave me goosebumps I smiled against her collar bone

She then flattened out her hand so her palm and fingers were warmly touching my skin in smooth movements I kissed her jaw briefly.

" good morning Kenny " she lazily said rubbing her eyes I smiled lifting my head to look at her face.

" good morning" I smiled back

She was looking around my face examining it almost

" when do we pick up Harper?" She asked " noon" I said " god only knows what their doing to our poor Harper- she probably is wearing a yeezy onesie " she said I laughed

I sat up facing her that lust I mentioned earlier was in her eyes again as she slowly looked down my body one of my folded legs were kinda across her stomach she had her hand on my knee.