Lies, Cries and Trying Times

Surprise Visit

Chapter 23:Surprise Visit

~Shae's Pov~

What do you do in a situation like this? A situation where the person you hate the most in the world is standing just beyond your doorframe? When your best friend is blocking that very person you believe shouldn't be breathing at this very moment? What do you do when you feel like you can't hold yourself together anymore? When you feel like your insides are about to shatter like glass in a storm. What can you possibly do to get rid of these feelings?

Well I toughed it out. I moved Liam aside and moved to see his face. Zach's face. I gripped the wooden door for strength when he moved forward and hugged me. I didn't move a muscle in fear that I might lose my mind. I distantly heard Liam's voice telling Zach to get off me and when he didn't listen, Liam pulled him off me. I could hear them arguing but their voices were faint. Everything sounded distorted and muffled. Zayn came to take Liam back inside, away from Zach. I knew they were right behind me but out of sight from Zach. No one knew how much I wanted to go in that kitchen, get a knife and drive it through Zach's heart.

I stood there and listened to him apologize for what he did. I listened to him say how he doesn't remember anything because he has amnesia but he's sorry for whatever he did to me. I stared at hus face, my expression blank, but his features barely registered in my mind. I felt like I was looking right through him. Everything he said went in one ear and came out the other. I never spoke, not one word left my mouth, that is until those six words left his mouth.

"Call Aiden. He'll reason with you." I felt every muscle tense in my body as my brother's name left his mouth.

"He's not here," I said slowly. My jaw clenched shut.

"Well, when he gets back," he tried and I just got angrier.

"He's not," I spat out those two words like they were poison in my mouth.

"What do you mean?" Zach asked.

"Do you really want to know?" I questioned and he nodded. I couldn't help but wonder how many times I would have to relive this very accident. How many times will my heart break as I see the image of my brother's pained face just before he was ripped away from me.

"You started to change. We broke up but stayed friends until someone new came to school. You weren't good for me and he made me realize that. Just before the crash you showed up here, completely shattered. You started asking me why I chose him over you. You were upset and jealous. I got you to leave but you were driving. And it just so happened that my brother was walking home. You lost control of your car--"

"No, I didn't-- I couldn't've--"

"You hit your head really hard but your car... It ran into him. He died in the hospital and you... Here you stand with your lost memories, but alive nonetheless, apologising for something I couldn't possibly forgive anyone for doing," I finished.

"Shae, I--"

"Don't," I cut him off. "Please. I just want you to leave and not come back for a really long time," I said.

"But I just--"

"Zach, please," I pleaded. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and be alone right now. His head slowly lowered as he turned around and walked away. I closed the door and layed my head against the cool wood for a moment. I took a few deep breaths to calm my heart rate before turning around to face the two boys. At first we were all silent, then Liam decided to speak.

"Do you want to--"

"No," I said to cut him off on purpose.

"Shae--" Zayn started but I cut him off, too.