Stay With Me (Matt Donovan FanFic) Part 4

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

"Hey Enzo, it's me. I just wanted to check in... you've been kind of MIA the last few days and believe it or not I kind of miss you... I could actually really use your company right now, I'm at the hospital, with Caroline... stop by when you get this, that'd be great. Bye" I felt sort of pathetic. Things with Enzo have slowed down quite a bit the last few days, we've hardly spoken and I wasn't completely sure if I had a problem with it or not.

My head was all over the place. I really wanted to swallow my feelings and be strong for my friends who all had so much going on, but my thoughts were consumed and my heart was battling my head. I didn't know what I wanted and until I figured it out, I couldn't be there in the right way for all of my friends.

I expected her surprised expression when she opened the door and saw me. Elena and I hadn't been on the best terms in the last few months, but right now she was the only one I could turn to.

"Hey, I know this is a little unexpected" I say standing at the door.

"Uh, you could say that... come in" She steps aside and I walk into her new place.

"I really wish I could handle this on my own... but I'm really stuck and I just need a friend" I say and her face warms and she sits next to me.

"I know just as well as you how crazy things have been the last few months... even before that, and I know we haven't always seen eye to eye but I'm here for you whatever you need. We're friends Aurora, nothing will change that" She says squeezing my hand.

"Ugh, it's so minor compared to everything else that's going on... I feel like I should know what to do, but I don't have the slightest clue" I say, preparing to spill mu guts.

"Well you could start by telling me what's got you so stuck" She says.

"Enzo... and Matt" I say it, trying to put it all into words. "I found this amazing person in Enzo, someone I don't think he shows rarely and I am so happy that he can be that person with me.... But Matt" I say and I don't know quite how to word it.

"I can see why you're so confused... Matt's been a big part of your life here in Mystic Falls, it's our home" She says.

"But we've always never known how it's going to end... we always pushed it to the side, or said we'd figure it all out then... and now we're not even together" I say shedding a tear.

"Hey, come here" She pulls me into a hug. "I think no matter what happens, you and Matt are going to mean something to each other, it's inevitable. You guys have a history and a bond so incredibly strong, it'll work out how it's supposed to" She says.

"That's not good enough, I ..I feel like if I don't figure it out now, it's going to always be there... or it's going to be too late" I say defeated,

"I can't tell you who you love, but this is all too familiar for me. I fell in love with 2 brothers... so the best advice I can give you, is follow your heart. Don't let your head get in the way, don't worry about what's best for everyone else, love who you love and do your best to do it gracefully" She says. I wish I could say it helped but what it made me see what that I had a lot of thinking to do and a really big choice to make.

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I went to Caroline's place, I wasn't able to figure out my feelings in one day but I could be there for a friend while her mother was sick. I sat with Caroline and her mom in their house. Caroline was telling me everything about her mothers cancer and how she had fed her blood to another cancer patient at Duke and it apparently healed him, until he showed up at her front door covered in blood and now a vampire.