Run Away With Me

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It's been a few months since Blake and his dad had the argument. I wasn't working for his dad anymore, actually I wasn't working at all, neither of us were. I constantly asked Blake to let me work or go back to school but he just wants me to be with him. Things were getting boring, nothing was really happening. We would go out, eat fancy food, come home and that was it. I would constantly think about my future. Was this it? Would be be doing this for the rest of out lives? I wasn't happy with that. I loved Blake but I didn't love this lifestyle. I then realized that none of this was what I wanted. I want to go to school, get a job, find the perfect guy, have beautiful kids, and have our perfect house. I just have the perfect guy, and I thought that was all I needed but I'm wrong. I need to do something with my life. I honestly feel like I've wasted a huge chunk of my life. While all my friends back home are in school, trying to gain knowledge for a career, I'm here doing nothing in New York. 

"Hey babe." I was sitting on the balcony and turned my head to see Blake pull up a chair next to me. "Hi." I looked across the city and continued thinking. "You okay?" He asked. I just looked at him, I was contemplating on whether or not I should tell him. "What's going on?" He asked. He could tell something was up and he grew worried. "I want to go back to school." I stated. He laughed, "Babe, you don't need to go back to school." "I don't care what I need, I know that I want to go back to school." My tone was a little harsh, but I was tired of him telling me that. " Why?" He asked. "I feel useless. I want to do something with myself. It seems as if I'm just here, wasting my time doing nothing." "Lexie you have the dream life! You live in this wonderful apartment, you don't have to pay for it. You have a loving boyfriend, you live in this beautiful city, you could do whatever you wanted here." "I'm going to school Blake." I stated. "Here in New York?" He asked. "Well, I was looking at University of Tennessee." I watched as his face turned sad. "You can come with me." I said. "What am I gonna do in Tennessee?" He asked. "The same thing you're doing here: Nothing." "It's different." He said "How is it different? You would be doing absolutely whatever you wanted." I said. "But you would be in school." "Okay, but it's not like my classes are gonna be twelve hours long. I'll be there in the morning and I'll get to come home to you at night." "Babe, you're being ridiculous. You can go back to work for my dad if you wanted to." "I don't want to live like this! I'm tired of all of it! I want to do something with my life and if you don't want to support me then-" I quickly stopped myself cause I knew I would regret every word I would've said. "Then what?" He asked. "Nothing. I don't know." I said quietly. "Then it's over? You would break up with me?" I just stared at him as tears formed and my heart started beating faster. "I'm gonna go inside." He stood up and I quickly reached for his arm. "Wait!" He just shook his head and walked in. 

I sat on the chair and cried. I wanted to live my dream but I want him with me. I also need his support and I don't have that. I stood up and walked in to see Blake sitting on the couch. I walked past him and went into our room. I stood at the door way and looked at everything. I scanned the room and sighed deeply. I went to the closet and as soon as I opened the door I started crying. I grabbed the suitcase and started throwing clothes, shoes and toiletries  as the tears fell from my eyes. I zipped up the suitcase, grabbed my bags and walked into the living room. I watched as his eyes fixated on me. He looked at me, the suitcase, and back at me. He stood up and I watched the tears form in his eyes. "No." He whispered. "I have to." I whispered back. "Please don't go." He said in a strained voice. "Blake, I need to go. I'm not happy here. I have been trying to be happy, but I'm not. I love you so much but I can't live this way anymore. You have to let me go." I cried harder than ever. He shook his head and grabbed my face. He leaned in and kissed me. We were crying in each others arms, but I needed to go. I slowly pulled  away and left him standing there. His arms to his side as he looked sad and defeated. I had my bags and suitcase in hand and I walked towards the door. "Lexie please!" He cried out. I turned around and looked into his eyes. "I love you so much Blake Henry." I opened the door and walked out with tears falling from my face. I could hear his loud sobs as I walked to the elevator and I felt my heart break.