The Beginning

What Do I Do?

Instead of pulling away, I kissed him back. It was a quick 5 seconds until he pulled away. He gave me a slight smile. He looked down at the sand and started to shuffle his feet. "Devyn. Im falling for you." He sighed. I didn't say anything. My mind was blank. I had no idea what to say, or think. It just so happened to be that Ricky showed up at that exact moment with taco bell. I looked up to see Connor staring at me. "I don't know what to say. Im sorry." I exclaimed. He just gave me the smile where one side of his mouth went up and walked away. I followed behind him looking at Sam and what seemed to be a very close friend of his.

I sat down next to Trevor because he was the only one I didn't feel awkward around at the moment. I started to hear Sams voice from across the circle we had formed. "Devyn? Are you ok?" Sam questioned.

"Um yeah. Just feeling a little sick thats all." I said.

"You sure? It seems like more than that.." He replies.

"Im fine. Id rather not talk about it!" I yell. He rolled his eyes at me and by the looks of it, he wasn't too happy.

"Sam I'm sorry! I think I just need to go home." I packed up my stuff and started to walk. I wasn't too far from the beach that I realized I wasn't sure where I was going. I saw a bench near by so I sat down trying to blow off some steam. I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe exhaling slowly when I felt someone gently touch my shoulder. I looked up to see Connor staring into my eyes. "Spill it." He exclaimed.

"When you kissed me I was shocked. I was falling for Sam when you were falling for me. Today when I saw Sam with that other girl I felt like it tore me apart. I know we haven't known each other for long but I have these feelings. Im not sure who the feelings are for but I know that seeing that broke me." I started to cry into his shoulder. He just smiled at me and let out a deep breath.

"Devyn. I have feelings like that all the time. The other girl you saw with Sam was his best friend. They have been friends ever since I could remember. That-that kiss, I'm sorry. I guess when we were looking at each other I felt the need to kiss you so I didn't hesitate to pull back. I wish I did but i didn't. It meant nothing. Maybe I am falling for you but it wouldn't matter because you don't feel the same. Its just how it is." He says boldly.

"So your not upset?" I ask.

"Of course not!" He giggles

"You gonna come back or do you still want a ride home?" He asks.

"Ill go back." I replied.

We started to head back and when I spotted all of them sitting there I wiped the tears from my face. Of course my face was red but I didn't care. Jc saw me as he got up to get a drink and started running towards me. He pulled me into a tight hug and apologized.

"What are you sorry for?" I asked.

"I don't want you to feel unwelcome. We care about you." He grinned

"You didn't make me feel unwelcome. I just had a lot going through my head." I smiled.

I spent the rest of the time talking to everyone but Sam. It was fun but I was exhausted. We packed our things up and headed home. We got home and they all wanted to hangout but instead I headed home and took a long hot shower. I had sand all in my hair and I felt completely disgusting. I washed my hair about 3 or 4 times trying to get as much sand out as a could and trying to get the salt water smell off my body. I got out of the shower drying myself off then putting my pajamas on. I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth then blow drying my hair putting it into a loose ponytail. I walked into my bedroom plugging my phone in and turning some music on to calm myself down. As my eyes got heavier I had finally fallen asleep.