Fixing You

Still

Chapter 24

Still

I tilted my head and licked my lips as I feel the heat travelling all throughout my body. I think mali gawing ganitong oras ang kasal, it's so freaking hot! Hindi nakatulong ang suot ko, balot na balot ako!

I could feel my skin's too irritated with the temperature considering my button down shirt is somehow tight since I like it that way, that it hugs my upper body because of my bulging muscles and chest.

"Init," Jack retorted beside me.

Hindi ko magawang tumawa o ngumisi kay Jack dahil maging ako ay init na init rin!

"They should have provided aircondition than these big fans..." Draven muttered on my other side, pertaining to the big electric fan located far away from us.

"Are you nuts? Ipapacentralize nila itong buong simbahan para lang sa kasal nila?" nguso ni Jack.

Draven raised his brow, "Why not?"

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako. If I'll add more rants with them ay baka tuluyan na kaming umalis ritong tatlo!

I scanned the whole church, usual traditional church wedding ang napili nila Carlo at ang kanyang mapapangasawa na si Janella. The motif of this wedding is in between the royal blue and silver, kahit ang mga bulaklak na nasa aisle ay blue tulips. I must say that they did a pretty good job designing this whole place, the ventilation lang talaga ang problema.

Marami na ring tao, we were just waiting for the wedding to start. Rinig ko ay nandiyan na rin si Carlo sa labas, I think they're just polishing some things or just doing some photoshoots then the entourage will begin. I understand how things will go in this kind of occasion. It should be slow, solemn, and romantic.

Naiintindihan ko naman eh, ang aking lang... masyado lang talagang mainit.

I mean, damn shit, who the hell decides their wedding will be at 3 in the afternoon?

Napaliwanag na sa akin ni Jack kung bakit alas tres ng hapon ang kasal na ito but I just can't collect my rational thoughts and keep my shit together with this situation! Ang pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ay iyong naiinitan ako at wala akong magawa. It is so hard to want something that can't be yours at the end, na para bang pinagkakait talaga ng mundong ito.

Ayaw ko lang naman kasi mainitan, iyon lang naman, bakit pa pinagkakait ng mundong 'to?

I am used with scorching heat of sun at least it was a direct contact but this one... I can't, alright! Pakiramdam ko ay nakalukob kaming lahat dito! Heat is trapped in this place and there's no other way for fresh air to come in and dominate the whole. Pakiramdam ko nga rin ay mainit lang din ang buga ng malalaking electric fan.

I sighed and unbutton the cuffs of my shirt, tinanggal ko rin ang isang butones sa aking dibdib para naman may pumasok din na hangin sa aking katawan. Naramdaman ko ang pagtingin sa akin ni Draven.

"Malapit na magsimula," he said with his usual formal tone. Tuwing naririnig ko talaga ang mga seryosong boses ng mga kaibigan ko ay ramdam na ramdam ko talaga na may ari sila ng naglalakihang kumpanya.

I wonder if I am like that, too. If my voice screams authority and demands to be respected, I wonder...

Nakita kong nakatingin pa rin sa akin si Draven, I wiggled my brows.

"What?" bulalas ko at umiling siya hindi na ako sinagot pa.

"Buti nalang 'di tayo best man, 'no?" I asked changing the topic, leaving my shirt still unbuttoned. Mamaya ko nalang iyon aayusin kung magsisimula na talaga.