Do You Remember (Bastille/Dan Smith)

Not again

/Jay's POV/

The boys had a live chat with a radio station this morning. I had the hotel to myself. I could tell this would be a bad day.

I dressed into comfortable clothes and looked at myself in the mirror. "Please tell me again why I exist." I mumbled into the mirror. I pulled the prescribed depression pills out of my bag, hoping they would help with today.

I couldn't get the container open so I threw it against the wall, which ended up breaking it open. All the pills were on the floor, I grabbed two and swallowed them, waddling out of the apartment to find somewhere to eat.

I sat down at a small café I found near the hotel and decided to check my social networking. I got on Instagram first decided to post a picture I took of me and Elli. It made me sorta happy.

I then looked at her profile, she had posted tons of photos from that day. I looked and saw many rude comments from her friends saying that I was too ugly to be dans girlfriend. Of course I know that's true though. Elli had defended me.

I had become quite popular on Instagram now. I've also found many bastille accounts had begun following me. I decided to stalk Dans profile a little bit. I saw a picture of me sleeping and clicked on it. He wrote, 'sleeping beauty.' And again, what followed it was more hate.

Some of the comments actually hurt me, because I know what they say is true. I look at myself after reading a comment about being too fat. It was true. I looked at the food I had ordered before leaving. Yeah, I'm hungry, but I need to lose weight. I'm too fat for Dan.

I went back to the room to find Dan and the boys worried. "Where were you?" Dan asked scarcely. "I, um, went to the café." I told him. He nodded, "I need to use the restroom," he said before walking in the direction of the door. I remembered this morning, when I dropped all the pills. "Wait!" I yelled. "I need to go." I told him. He looked at me strangely and entered the bathroom. "I had to go first!" He concluded before saying, "what the? Jay, come here." For some reason I felt like a toddler who ruined her mums jewelry.

Will, Woody, and Kyle all looked at me. I stood there, not wanting to go in. "Jay!" Dan yelled like a mad mum. I walked in there, his loud voice scarred us all. "Yeah?" I asked innocently as I walked into the bathroom. "What's this?" he asked pointedly about the pills and empty broken container on the floor.

I shrugged, looking anywhere but into his eyes. "Jaycee!" He yelled and I looked up at him. "What is going on?" he asked slowly and sharply. "I couldn't get the container opened so I threw it at the wall." I told him in monotone. "Why do you need the pills anyway? I thought you were doing fine!" He yelled. "Why are you yelling?" I asked him.

"I'm sorry Jay, just please, why did you need the pills? Are you okay?" Dan pleaded quieter. "I'm okay, I was just having a bad day, I feel better now though," I lied. He shook his head and walked up to me wrapping his arms around my body. "I'm sorry Jay, I didn't mean to freak out. I was just worried." He told me and I nodded, embracing him back.

"Everything okay in here?" Kyle asked poking his head in. "Yes," I answered and he left, informing the others quite loudly. "Their fine, I guess Dan just wanted her in there to make-out with her!" Kyle screamed and Dan let go of me and ran out the door.

"Kyle your such an idiot." He yelled to him. I looked to the floor a grabbed a hand full of pills, putting them in my mouth all at once and swallowing them hard. "That should help." I muttered walking out of the room down to where everyone else was.

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ELLO! Sorry for the late update. I've been busy. Hopefully next update will be before Sunday. Vote and comment! Please and thanks!

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