Do You Remember (Bastille/Dan Smith)

Part 1:

/Dans POV/

Jay walked into the living room. She was somewhat different today, I think she was having a bad day. "Come here Jay." I told her and she came to me sitting on my lap. I hugged her and she just sat there. Everyone was in here playing on their phones, laptops, or both.

"You alright?" She shook her head and my grip got tighter around her. Why did she shake her head no. She turned around and hugged me tight. Then whispered in my ear, "can I tell you a secret." I told her she could and she continued, "after you left me in the bathroom alone, I accidentally took a handful of the pills. I didn't mean too, I just couldn't stop myself." She said. Oh my gosh, she could die from taking too many pills.

I stood up, still carrying her, before yelling, "call the ambulance!" And that's exactly what Kyle did. I fell to the floor crying with Jaycee in my arms, "Jay, you idiot," I sobbed. "I'll be okay Dan, don't worry, I'm fine." She whispered zoning off.

Everything was going so fast, will and woody looked at me, they looked scarred. They haven't ever seen me cry. None of them have. "Wake up!" I began shaking her, but she wouldn't. I cried harder.

Net thing I know, 4 men came in and took her away from me. I didn't move, I couldn't move. Did I do something that made her feel the need to try and commit suicide. Did I make her do this. I laid on the floor still crying. I couldn't move, I just laid there.

Maybe it wasn't me, but my fans. I looked at her Instagram, so many people called her mean names, and told her to.... to kill herself.

I got decided to post a picture. I knew my face was red and puffy from crying, it still is, because I haven't stopped crying. I took a picture of myself. My whole face was red and wet from tears. My eyes glossy and still leaking tears. In the caption I wrote, 'I hope you are all happy. Why you, so called stormers tell my girlfriend to kill herself? I'll have no idea. But your wish came true. Now to see if you succeeded or not.'

I got up slowly, the guys were all starring at me. I shrunk to the floor once more, putting my head in my knees, before screaming, "I HATE OUR FANS." Along with some words that are better left unknown. I stood up and wiped my face. "Lets go see Jay." I told them and they all nodded.

Kyle drove, it was silent. I tried to stop crying, but couldn't. I remembered, we had a gig tonight. I forgot about it. It's not what's important right now. We pulled up and I jumped out of the car running into the hospital. "Where is Jay?" I demanded. "Where is she?" I screamed when the lady just starred at me. Kyle ran in and pulled me back. "I apologize mrs. Where is Jaycee Cunningham at?" There was a pained expression on her face. "I, I'm sorry, but she died on the way over." She explained.

My mind went blank, there was about 30 people in the hospital that day, sitting and watching me. I started cautiously walking backwards. Before tripping and falling to the ground. I started sobbing into the floor and crying. I stood up before pulling out my phone to make an Instagram video. "I hope your happy!"I screamed into the stupid device. "She's dead, because of you guys, I hate you all so much. I hate you...." I trailed off into crying more. I posted the video, the last 5 seconds had me sobbing.

Everybody was watching me, "what are you looking at? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE KILLED HERSELF BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID FANS? Huh," I yelled to them, they all looked at me with pity. "Please," I cried, "she can't be dead." I told the lady. "I'm sorry," she whispered. I ran out of the hospital and down the roads, until I hit a place unknown to me. I sat down on the side of the road, Got my phone out and read many comments.

'Oh my gosh. I am so sorry dan."

'That is horrible. I am so sorry."

'Sorry for your loss.'

'Stupid people, that's horrible."

"She killed herself because of what people said, she's a bit pathetic.' That comment made me mad. 'Yes, because it's a bit pathetic to have FREAKING DEPRESSION AND ALREADY FEEL INSECURE ABOUT YOURSELF.' I commented back to her. 'I'm sorry. Dan please, forgive me. I'm so sorry.' She replied back. Whatever, I hate everything. "I HATE EVERYTHING," I screamed. I got on twitter and decided to tweet. 'I love you beautiful,' with a picture of Jay. I saw where woody, will, and Kyle all tweeted photos of Jay. I was getting so many tweets about how they were all sorry for my loss.

One stood out, it was Elli. 'Is she really dead dan?' I commented back, a yes. I know how much Jay adored Elli. I added, 'meet me at the first place we met you,' and she commented back an okay. I sat at the table me and Jay sat at. Elli entered the restaurant. She had tear stained cheeks as well. She sat across from me. "Dan," she muttered. I look at her, but said nothing. "How'd it happen?"

"Jay had depression, very severe depression. I was the cause of the depression in the first place, now I'm the end of it too. I guess jay had seen all of the hate on her Instagram and twitter and it got too far. She wanted to die. So she did."

Elli started sobbing along with me. "So what's going to happen now?" She sobbed. "I don't know." I answer.

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Depressing chapter ehh. Sorry, you may or may not be surprised about what'll happen in the next chapter though. Vote and comment, thanks.

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