Broken (ZonniquexBahja) *Editing*

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Zonnique~

5 months... 5 miserable months.

It's only been 5 months since Bahja told me she wanted nothing to do with me anymore. She came down to the hospital that day and everything took a turn for the worst. It started off really well. We were having a good conversation and Lauren sparked up the topic of me and Bahja being together.

At first I was shy about it. I didn't know what to say because I knew she had a crush on me. But then it shocked me when she started going off.

"You and Zonnique should just stop playing. Y'all already act like a couple... Might as well be one."

I blushed at Lauren's comment before Bahja replied.

"I wish y'all would stop saying we're together, or gonna get together. It's not happening. I really want nothing to do with you. You changed me, for the better of course, but I only did it for YOU. You don't even like me because you can't move past the fact that I am trying to please you. Someone just had to be putting on an act right? Well now here's your scene. Don't call me, don't text me, don't mention me on social media, don't come to the studio, don't come by my house. Don't text or call my family or my friends and they'll do the same. Don't associate with anybody that I know or used to fuck with. I'm completely done with you... Have a nice broke ass miserable life."

With that she was literally gone. I don't know what I did, but I was hurt more than shocked. I usually don't follow orders from anyone, I don't listen to what a nobody has to tell me. But when she told me not to do any of those things, I obliged and didn't do it. Do I miss her? Yes I miss her.

But I fucked it all up apparently. I didn't give her a chance... But that was no reason to cut someone off. She could've waited. I was willing to give her a chance, just not so fast. We could've really had something growing, but it's all over now.

I pulled my covers further over my head as my bedroom door opened.

"Zo you seriously can't still be crying." I heard Lauren's voice.

I heard her footsteps move closer towards me and then the bed moved, indicating that she sat down. I felt her hand on my back and she pulled the covers down. I frowned and groaned as the light from the hall shone on my face.

"It's going on 6 months... Out of these 5, you've done nothing but cry, sleep, and barely eating. The only time you were really smiling was my graduation. Hell, you probably weren't really happy, but it was nice to see you up and smiling."

Lauren's graduation was 3 months ago, that was the last time I had seen Bahja and everyone else. Lourdes, Bree, Mama Sham, Cairen, and Damar all showed up as well. That was our last time speaking. I guess they all cut me off too because none of them have bothered to hit me up... And they all blocked me on social media.

"Get up!!" Lauren pushed me.

"No Lauren. Leave me alone."

"Not until you get up and get at it."

"I don't feel like it."

"I knew you liked her."

"Who?"

"Bahja, don't play dumb. If you didn't like her, she wouldn't have had this much of an affect on you."

"I didn't, or don't like her Lauren."

"Stop deny--"

"I'm in love with her."

Bahja~

"Stop." She giggled and pushed my head back. "You need to get back to work."

"You are my work..." I kissed her neck some more and she moaned a little.