Broken (ZonniquexBahja) *Editing*

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Dear Bahja,

I know you probably won't read this, quite frankly I know you won't even care... But there's something I have to get off my chest. I love you... I'm in love with you actually. I know it's taken me awhile to say that, but I had to take time to realize my feelings. I needed to confirm my own feelings before I unleashed them. I'm sorry I pushed you away. It wasn't my intention, but I did. I know you didn't send that message either... I've come to a conclusion that Kyla did. I'm not gonna point fingers, but I don't know a single person who could've done that. But besides that, I guess I just wasn't ready for commitment... You mean a lot to me and I mean that to the bottom of my heart. Bahja there's not a single muscle in my body that can pull me away from you... Which is why I'm sitting here writing this letter. Kehlani and I had a talk yesterday... She told me how you two used to be friends and how this whole "I don't care" phase came to be. I know you're hurting and I'm sorry I never seen that. I was being selfish and only thinking of myself and my feelings... I never brought yours into consideration. I don't know how many times I can say sorry, just to prove to you that I genuinely am. I guess what I'm getting at Bahja, is that I missed my chance with you... I get it. I'm glad that you're happy with Kyla. You two deserve each other, especially after all that you've been through. I've decided to move to L.A with Lani... We aren't really together because she figured out that I still have a thing for you... But it's nice to really get a fresh start out of ATL. I'm gonna miss you, but I'm gonna come back and visit for sure. Hopefully you'll come to visit us too? I just want you to promise me that you'll take care of yourself, you'll stick to our promise and make things right for the better of yourself. I don't know when you've opened this, but I leave Sunday night around 6. And Bahja... If you show up just to say goodbye, then I know that what we were gonna spark up is not dead... But if you don't, I promise you we'll never have to see or talk to each other another day in our lives. I just want you to know that I love you... Forever and a day.

               Love, Z❤.

I stood up from my bed and looked at the time. 4:45.

"Lourdes!" I ran downstairs and seen her and my mom getting ready to leave.

Thank God they're leaving... I don't understand why my place is always the get together place. I moved out for a reason.

"Why are you running and screaming?" My mom looked at me concerned.

"Where are y'all going?"

"Were going to say goodbye to Zonnique and Lauren before they leave."

"How did y'all know they were leaving?"

"Unlike you, we're nice and we talked to them." Lourdes rolled her eyes.

"Let's go then!"

I practically dragged them out of the house and out to the car. "I already called shotgun." Lourdes stated.

"I really don't care... I need to see Zo--" I stopped mid-sentence, carefully of my word choice. "I need to see my baby."

"Your baby!?" Their heads snapped towards me.

"You're a hoe--"

"Watch your damn mouth." My mom hit Lourdes as she started the car.

"You're a player and you better make up your mind... One minute you want Kyla, the next Zonnique. Pretty soon neither one of them is gonna want you."

My mom started driving and I sighed, "yeah well... I need to let Zo in on a few things. Lani told her about what happened when we were younger. The reason why I act the way I do today."

"With dad?" Lourdes asked softly.

"Mhmm." I hummed a response. "I'm not upset with Lani or anything... It's good that one of us let it out. She told her what I just couldn't bring myself to do at any given point."