Ryans pov
"Then you fucking meant it "
Those words keep ringing in my ears. Five months ago. The only thing that bones has said to me is hi when she's hanging out with us which hasnt been in a while. She left three months ago to tour with womb. Theres this video of her and the vocalist tory that keeps going around on social media. Its of them running up to eachother hugging. Before she left i would see her laugh and talk to ricky and Chris and balz. I would see her do this weird handshake with angelo. I would see her smack tj on the back of the head whenever he says something douchey. I would see her even laugh at my jokes sometimes. I miss her here. She's so beautiful. How could I fuck this up?
"Then you fucking meant it " it rang in my head continously
No I didn't. I didn't mean any of it. I didn't want Talia. I've never wanted anyone or anything more than I've wanted bones.
"Did you say it?"
"Then you fucking meant it"
Its august now. August 7th is her birthday. I know exactly what she wants. She wants a rangers jersey. She loves the New York Rangers. I think I'll get her one. She won't care.
I didn't mean it. I didn't. I love her. I need her. I need her so bad.
"Ryan. Dude ryan. Check this out " balz said to me. It was some video of bones with some guy. It was an interview. Why was she being interviewed. Oh yeah. She was touring with womb
"So what's it like playing in womb they're getting to be pretty big " the interviewer asked
"Its pretty cool honestly. I've never been in a band. Just recorded them, so when Tory asked me if I wanted to tour with them and fill in for Jace of course I said yes to them. " she replied smiling
"Were you and The guys in womb friends before this " the interviewer asked
"I wouldn't say friends before this. I recorded them in a kinda weird time for me so one day Tory asked what was wrong with me and I kinda word vomited on him. Eventually we became kind of really good friends." She said laughing nervously
"I heard you and tory kind of are a thing " the interviewer laughed
"Oh gosh. It's so funny. Everyone thinks that. We're just really close friends. But tory is one of the most handsome guys I've ever met. It's been such an honor filling in for Jace. Honestly " she laughed and smiled.
Gosh her smile is beautiful. I didn't even notice I was almost crying until my eyes began to sting. I wiped my eyes and continued to watch the video
"So do you mind me asking about what happened with you and Ryan from Motionless in white " the guy asked.
"No not at all. Basically we just were on two separate pages. Ryans a great guy and I want nothing but the best for him. He's amazing in every sense. I guess I just wasn't the person for him" she laughed.
What? Wasn't the person for me? She is the only person for me. How could she say that?
Calm down Ryan. It's okay.
"Are you two still friends " the interviewer questioned
"I would say so. I mean I hope so. I really dig the dudes in motionless. They're all really great people" she smiled.
She's so respectful. After what I did I would have slandered my name for months.
"So out of the guys in womb, fuck marry kill" the interviewer said.
I was getting fucking pissed at this point.
"Do I have to? " she laughed
"Absolutely " one of the guys in the back who wasn't on camera yelled. She just laughed and flipped them off
"Fuck off tory" she smiled.
"Okay, I'd marry tory since I'm closest with him. I'd fuck Jeremy and I'd kill Tony " she laughed.
"Let's end this on a funny note. What's the weirdest situation you've ever been in on tour " the interviewer asked
"Gosh. Okay so it was right after our set in vegas and we went to this skate park and this guy noticed us and started asking questions about who we were where we were from what we did. You know normal shit and then after that he asked me if he could bite my lip " she started laughing. "It wasn't too weird but for the most part we have pretty normal experiences. "
"He wanted to bite your lip" the interviewer laughed hysterically
"Yeah like really bad and I mean it wasn't the weirdest thing that's ever happened to me but it was definitely funny " she said.
"Well thank you so much for sitting and talking with me. " said the interviewer
"Yeah man no problem. And to the viewers watching make sure you check out Womb and buy their new album "clitoraldisaster" also check out the rest of the videos on this channel and give Keith and his team here a sub" she smiled and hugged the interviewer named Keith apparently. The video ended
"She mentioned you dude " said balz.
"She lied about us " I replied
"She lied about you. To save your ass. She misses you. She tells me all of the time " balz said seriously.
"She misses me?" I asked
"Badly. She talks about you like you're a god Ryan. You fucked up" he said.
"Do you not think I know that? " I said annoyed. Chris walked in and told me that bones was coming home tomorrow and that she was coming to hang out.
We then started to write our new album. We had a few songs and I like the direction this album is taking. I think tj wants out of the band bc he's been hanging in nv with the Etf guys.
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(**COMPLETED **)then you meant it. (Ryan Sitkowski)
Fanfiction"Did you say it ryan?" She whispered. I looked down. "Then you fucking meant it " she said
