(**COMPLETED **)then you meant it. (Ryan Sitkowski)

did you say it?

Bones pov
Yesterday I left ryan to go home. It felt good to be back in my own bed and not around the guys. As much as I love them I didn't love the smell of sweat and boy for two months..

Ryan texted me last night saying we needed to talk. He probably just wanted to ask about recording or something. I'm really excited to record them soon.

I got a text from ryan right when I had just gotten out of the shower and brushed my teeth

"I'll be there in ten " it said. I smiled and didn't text back since he was driving.

He's a really good person. He's honestly such a good person. too nice for his own good. I haven't been this smiley and stoked on everything in years. I think I could actually fall for ryan. I think I already am honestly.

I decided to fill in my eyebrows and begin to make ryan and I coffee.

I was in the middle of making coffee when ryan came in. I smiled and walked over to kiss him. I stood on my tippy toes and kissed him. He didn't kiss back.

His eyes were red and puffy. He smelled like cologne and cigarettes. He looked like he had just seen a ghost though. His hair was straight but didn't look clean. He was wearing what he always wears:skinny jeans and a black hoodie of sorts

"are you okay?" I asked handing him a cup of coffee "you don't look so good baby.  Sit down" I said pulling out a chair from my coffee table. He sat down and put his face in his hands and whispered to himself. He was starting to scare me.

"Ryan baby what is it" I asked. He shook. "Ryan please talk to me " I said.
"Bones I...." he said and looked down. He looked like he was in pain. I grabbed his hand and held it.

"Im sorry" he said. Sorry for what?

"Okay. Well in order to understand why you're sorry, you should tell me what happened babe" I replied nervously laughing.

He looked up at me. Pain in his eyes. He pulled his hand away from me. He started messing with the strings on his hoodie. 

"Before you hear this. I need you to know something. That I love you. We haven't said it to eachother yet. But I need you to know that I don't use that word lightly and that when I say it I mean it with all of my heart. Bones over the past two months I have fallen inlove with everything you do. Your brown eyes. the way you laugh like a four year old. How you always put everyone you know before yourself. I love you for so many reasons that I can't even begin to list. And because I love you this is why I'm telling you this.

Last night I cheated on you. I don't remember doing it, but I did apparently. Atleast that's what Chris said. I also apparently told her I loved her. Which isn't true. I'm sorry okay. I'm really sorry. I never wanted for you to hurt. I still don't want you to hurt. I'm just sorry " Ryan spoke quietly. This all hurt. Very bad.

"You know, I appreciate you telling me this. But since you were drunk and don't remember it. Who said that you did and said this. " I asked. If he said he loves me then I believe him. So I want to get to the bottom of this.

"Chris " he said quietly. I grabbed his hand and held it again

"Ryan I don't believe that you even cheated on me yet. Don't worry okay? I'll get to the bottom of this " I smiled

I let go of his hand and called Chris. He told me to talk to Talia.

I grabbed ryans phone and found Talia and texted her pretending to be ryan.

"Hey. Can we talk today? I want you to meet me at sheetz " I texted. Almost instantly she texted back saying okay.

I kissed ryan and told him what was going on.