(**COMPLETED **)then you meant it. (Ryan Sitkowski)

Fuck me up son

Bones pov the day she gets home.

I see my boys today. By my boys I mean motionless in white. I did an interview with my friend Keith for his youtube channel. We talked about ryan in it and he asked me if I was with Tory. But trust me if I wanted tory I could have tory. He was all over me on tour and he tried to hook up with me on numerous occasions. I didn't because I love ryan. It's been five months since the incident. So many times I have went to text him but just deleted the words every time. I think im going to say something to him. I hope he doesn't hate me. I pulled out my phone and called Josh.

"Josh help" I asked once he picked up

"What's up? " he replied.

"How do I tell ryan I love him" I asked
"Just like that. As easy as it was for you to tell me that you love him " Josh laughed

"Im scared " I spoke

"You're always scared " said Josh.

"Whatever jerk" I laughed before hanging up.

I started to text ryan.

"This is long and overdo. But I miss you. I miss your hands in mine. I miss your sleepy kisses and your kind heart. I miss you kissing my stomach whenever I call myself fat. I miss you holding me. I miss you. I miss you. Ryan you fucking asshole I miss you" I wrote and then deleted. I can't do this over text.

I called him.

"Hello?" He answered sleepily.

"Hey Ryan..." I trailed.

"Bones?" He asked sounding more awake.

"Can you come over .... we need to talk. " I said.

"Is everything okay? Are you okay?" He asked sounding worried.

"Just come over" I giggled.

"I'll be over in ten " he said

When he got to my house I was pacing back and fourth basically running through what to say in my head.

When he opened the door he looked mad

"Hi" I said looking down

"Hi there " he said coming towards me 
"Okay. You're going to stand there and listen to me and im going to unreasonably yell at you and say what I've wanted to say for five months. Got it?" I said.

He just laughed and sat on the arm of my couch with his arms crossed

"Ryan. I love you. Okay? Not in some stupid write your name in all of my notebooks way either. Some cry my eyes out feeling sick to my stomach when I'm not with you, hating you for hurting me but loving you an unreasonable amount. When I think of you I think of your stupid laugh and how much you love wings. I think of your hair tangled in my fingers I think of you telling me how beautiful I am and how unbelievably stubborn I am. I love you I love you so much it hurts me. I don't go a second without thinking about you. You mean the world to me. I hate you. I hate you so much though. How could you walk away when I asked you to? Why didn't you turn around? Why didn't you stay. Why didn't you just hold me. Why didn't you stay? Ryan I wanted to get you out of my head for months and it never works. So im going to just shut up now. I'm going to shut up and im going to kiss you and you're going to kiss me back and you're going to tell me you love me as much as I love you. You're going to kiss me again. You're going to stop laughing and smirking and crossing your arms and you're going to stop being so cute and tell me you love me!!!!!!!!!" I basically screamed at him

"Are you done? " he laughed un crossing his arms and pulling me to him.

"I love you" he said before kissing me

"You love me" I said before kissing him

"Mhm. I love you" he said before kissing me again

"You have to tell me again " I said

"I love you bones" he kissed me again. I melted into him and began to shake and cry.

He held me and rubbed my back.

"I love you as much as you love me  I love you more and more every day bones. " he whispered while kissing the top of my head.

"I hate you" I whispered.

"I know. " he kissed my forehead.

"How was tour " he asked.

"Stupid. Fun but stupid because all I did was miss you" I said into his chest.

He just laughed. I missed his laugh. I needed his laugh. It was like oxygen.

"Tell me again" I said

"I love you. " he spoke quietly. We stood there hugging and kissing and telling eachother we love eachother for like an hour. We ended up having sex on my floor before I heard a knock at my door.

"Shit!!!!" I yelled trying to find my clothes on the floor

I picked up ryans shirt. I put it on and went to the door. "Baby who is it. " Ryan asked

"The guys I forgot they were coming over." I yelled back trying to put on my underwear faster "hold on!!!!" I yelled.

"You could have told me " Ryan whispered while putting on his pants

"Where's my hoodie" he said

I tossed it to him. "Just put on this I'm wearing your shirt right now" I said before answering the door

"Hey guyyys" I said opening it

When the guys walked in ryan was just then putting his shirt on with his back facing us

"Did you guys just fuck????" Said balz. I just blushed

"No what are you talking about " Ryan said

"There's scratches on your back and they're also bloody also Bones is pants less and not the usual pants less because she usually has on shorts underneath" said Chris

Ryan blushed. "Shut up don't look at her. That's my girl" he said before punching chris's arm. The guys all laughed and I went to my room to put on pants. I put on my addidas track pants and came out.

I started to make breakfast for the guys.

"So are you two back together " Ricky asked

"I hope so " said ryan.

"Yes ricky. Balz can you get plates down for me" I asked. Balz helped me get the plates and food set up for the boys. I sat on Ryans lap while eating.

I love him. I love ryan so much