Ryans pov
I saw her run past me into his arms. Is she with him now? She looks so good. She was talking to ricky. I hope she misses me like I miss her. I love her. I love her so fucking much. I miss her. Please tell me she's thinking of me. Why was I so stupid? Why did I let her go?Why did I get with nova. Why didn't I run back to her and kiss her over and over and say I'm sorry. I hate seeing her with tory.
I sighed and walked out to the front porch. When I walked by I saw her talking to balz and Brandon. Our new drummer. Does she love tory? Does he love her?
When I got to the front porch I checked my phone. It was nova. She said "I know it's her. It's always been her. Go get her ryan. " I smiled. Nova was really cool and she understood me like my band understands me.
I got out my pack of cigarettes and lit one. The door opened and it was Bones.
She smiled at me and asked if she could stand with me. I nodded and looked down.
She took out here cigarettes and lit one and began to talk.
"Its beautiful out here isn't it "
I didn't say anything
"You can give me the silent treatment all day long. I'm friends with your friends and vise versa. So you can either talk with me now or sometime later " she said laughing a little.
I nodded "so are you with tory"
"Define with " she looked at me in the eyes.
"Are you his girlfriend " I said loudly
"No. But that's really not your business shittowski" she smiled
"Not my buisness?" I mocked her
"Yeah not your business " she said.
"Well when you're done with him maybe you could go after tj. I hear he likes a good time " I said putting out my cigarette and glaring at her.
She looked down. "Ryan you left me I thought I found the guy I was going to spend the rest of my life with. So I was done with boys and boys flirting with me. I was done with one night stands and first dates. I was done with even pretending that I was okay because you made me okay. I was finally fine with you. I was finally good enough for someone. You left. You don't get to sit here and be mad at me for trying to put myself together. I sat there and waited. Every day for six months for you to call to maybe ask me to coffee to maybe tell me that you missed me. To even talk to me. I was waiting by my phone for a call, a text or a sub tweet even. I was waiting for you for months. I spent six months crying and waiting for you to come to my door and tell me you loved me. I was waiting for anything. I was even hoping and praying that you would talk to balz or ghost or SOMEONE anyone about me. But there was nothing. Nobody said a word to me about you until ricky tonight. So four months ago I decided to not do that to myself anymore. I decided to put myself back together and mend the pieces that you broke. So maybe I am texting and flirting and kissing and hugging Tory but not because I'm over you, because there will never be a day where I'm over you. Where I stop loving you. Where I stop missing you, but I did give up on waiting for you. So I am putting myself back together. So you can be mad at me for however long for kissing another guy, but you do not get to stand there and make me feel even fucking worse for you leaving, for you breaking my heart into millions of pieces. So this time I'm walking away."
She began to walk away but I put my hand on her shoulder. She moved it off wiped her tears off and walked inside.
I never knew she waited. I can't believe I hurt her like that.
When I walked back inside she was standing with a beer in her hand with torys arm wrapped around her. She was smiling and talking to ethan and Maggie. I wanted to scream that I love her from the top of my lungs and rip tory off of her.
I couldnt see her anymore because it hurt to bad, so I told Chris and the guys that I was leaving and walked out of the party. I drove home and decided to go on twitter. There was a picture that ethan had tweeted of bones and tory that said
"Good to see you smile again. "
That felt like a fucking punch in the jaw.
I got off of twitter and went to sleep.
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(**COMPLETED **)then you meant it. (Ryan Sitkowski)
Fanfiction"Did you say it ryan?" She whispered. I looked down. "Then you fucking meant it " she said
