A Jackass Life. (A Bam Margera Love story)

"Can't make you stay"

Unfortunately me and Bam were still locked in the fucking closet. My phone was on 45% and I had texted all the guys to let me out and they refused.

"Ugh. Fuck this" I murmured and let my head fall in my hands.

"They'll let us out sooner or later" Bam tried to reassure me but it didn't work. Not at all.

I still hated the fact that I was so close to him. My hatred was fuming out of my mind.
"Don't you think it's later already? I had places to go to today. That's not happening now. And who asked you anyway? Surely it wasn't me and I'm the only other fucking person stuck on this damn closet!" I yelled.
I knew I was lying about having places to go, but he was getting under my skin quickly and I wanted to do the same to him.

I despised him after all, or at least I wanted to badly.

He sighed and rolled his eyes at me, which didn't help my anger at all.

"Stop yelling all the time. I'm not giddy about being in here with you either. But chill the fuck out. Take the stick out if your ass and breath. They have to let us out at some point."
He said calmer than I had expected.

"Shut the fuck up Margera. I don't have a stick up my ass, but I'm about to shove my foot up yours. You're such an asshole. I'm aware they have to let us out at some point, but that could fucking be hours from now, who the fuck knows when. I don't see how I ever dated you." I said and rolled my eyes at him.

His face was clearly showing his anger towards me now. I didn't give a fuck.  He had it coming as far as I was concerned.

"Really? You don't see how you dated me? Cause you didn't for long. You fucking left. Don't blame me for that shit. If you weren't happy with me we could have fucking talked it out. I never fucking cheated on you like you think I was." He paused to take a breath.

"You have no idea what the fuck I was doing."

"Then fucking tell me bam! If you weren't fucking cheating than what the hell were you doing all those days with Kat? Just 'catching up'? Yeah bullshit. You spend every fucking minute that we weren't filming with her. You barely spent time with me. Your fucking girlfriend for god sakes.!!"

"If you have fucking stayed for a few days longer than you would have fucking foundout. But no, you left. " he sighed.
"Look, I get that I was gone all the time. I get that it looked bad. But I wasn't cheating on you. After all that we went through, and after everything I did to be with you, you're stupid to think that I'd cheat on you" he said calmly.

"Then what were you doing Bam? Huh?" I questioned. Pushing the subject further when I probably shouldn't but who cares?

I had the right to know about it and I deserved to know.

"I was making something for you, and I needed Kat's help. " that's all you need to know.

"If that was the case Bam, then why didn't you just tell me? Or at least just say that you and Kat are doing something for me? That would have been more logical." I stated and we both knew I was right.

"Because I'm stupid okay? Can we just drop this? It isn't important anymore." He said putting his fingers to his forehead and sighing.

"The hell it isn't. To hell with you. You can't just tell me something like this and expect me to drop it afterwords. I deserve to know.  Seeing as how I thought you were cheating on me all this time. But ya know what really tops this shit pile?" I asked redundantly and mostly rhetorical.

"And what would that be huh?" He said getting up and walking over to me. Inches from me, and I took a step back.

"You didn't even come after me." I chuckled dryly. 

He looked confused, so I kept going.

"I walked right out of that hotel room, without a second glance, and you just sat there. You didn't say anything. Mostly because you looked like you didn't know what to say. But, I knew there was something else to it.  When I left I just played it off as guilt because you were ashamed I had caught on, but now?... now I don't know what it is. But you didn't come after me. You had plenty of a chance to. Cause I waited."
I finished and by the end of it. He was looking at me intently.

"Why didn't you come after me?" I said on the brim of tears. But, I tried my hardest not to let them fall. I couldn't let him see me weak. Not now.

"Because......... you can't make someone stay with you against their will. You can't make someone stay if they want to leave. I wasn't going to try to make you stay after I saw how much I hurt you. Even if what you thought wasn't true. As clique as it may be, I loved you, so I let you go. Believe me or not, but that was the stupidest, hardest mistake I've ever made. I restrained myself from running out that door to stop you from leaving. But I couldn't make you stay. You can't make someone stay, if they want to leave ."  He was calm now. Holding my face in his hands, and moving the loose strands of hair from my eyes.

"You can't make someone stay if they want to leave.
But who ever said I wanted to leave?"
I looked up at him. My eyes bore into his.
"I did it because I thought it was the only choice I had. I did it because I refused to be in a relationship where I was getting cheated on. I wasn't going to be that pathetic girl to you or myself. I made up my mind. I refused to be pitied.  I refused to not have a choice in the relationship anymore, so I made a choice of my own because accusations you made seem true. I didn't want to leave jackass, I thought I had to for my sanity."

I moved his hands away from my face quickly and forcefully.

"I despise you" I said quickly glancing at him.

I walked over to the door and banged on it hard and heavy.
"Get me out of this Damn closet!"  I yelled until Bam reached over and grabbed my wrist turning me around. Pushing me up against the door, both of my hands being lifted over my head by one of his hands and the other clutching my hip.

"Tell me this isn't want you've been wanting, begging for me to do. I've seen the way you glance at me every now and then. The way you still bite your damn lip, knowing it drives me crazy."
The hand that was on my hip went around and grabbed my ass firmly.

"Tell me to stop and I will." He said moving his head to my neck and start lightly kissing before biting it and sucking it hard.

Trying to keep my lips closed, but failing, a small moan escaped my mouth, and my bottom lip was now subconsciously in between my teeth.

I knew then that I didn't have the power to tell him to stop, much less did I want him to.

Everything I had said prior to that moment was still in my mind, and still effortlessly true, however, I knew it wouldn't take much longer of Bam's lips on my body for me to throw it all out the window and give in...