Save Me[Book 2 of R.M]

Save Me/30/Always Friends

"Sometimes you can't let go of what's making you sad, because it's the only thing that made you happy."

-unknown anime quote

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Mikan

I sigh as my hands reach up my hair. So short...

You should let down your hair.

Snip, Snip, Snip. I trim the ends of my hair to make it even but it hurts to do so. I wanted to grow out my hair for Natsume because I heard from the other girls that he liked long hair. It's too bad really, he would have liked to see me with my hair down one day, I think.

Oh well...

I place contacts on my eyes and look at myself through the mirror. I dyed my hair black temporarily and let it down. I feel so naked because my shoulders don't feel any weight on them and my skin is exposed at the moment. I just don't feel like getting my uniform on right this second; I'm afraid I'll cry.

Finally, it's time to go. I take an apple and head out with my bag hung on my shoulder. It's 6 in the morning but I'm outside the Academy so I must hurry over there.

According to Joshua, I must pose as a normal student. I can't get close to anyone and I must have a different personality from my own. It's not that difficult but I'm a little anxious. What will happen if I see my friends? I'm bound to act suspicious at the very least and they'll suspect me because they're that sharp.

Ah... I'm so nervous! I haven't been to school in like a month. I have butterflies in my stomach and I've lost a lot of weight over the last few days too.

I take my time walking, it won't look so suspicious if I'm late right?

I look down at my shoes as I walk. My mind is so jumbled up that I might overthink this. Maybe.

"Mikan." I hear from behind. It's Takumi, dressed as Izaya.

"Izaya..." I mumble. He waves and walks by my side. He holds my hand and I feel reassured. "I'm nervous." I confess and he nods.

"You don't have to be nervous. No one will suspect us." I'm glad that I at least have someone to talk to during this whole time. I can't get close to anyone and so having him here makes me a little more relaxed.

"What about Yuu?" I ask again and he sighs.

"He's been pretending to be sick the whole time and has a clone in his place. He's actually been working for Joshua the whole time so you won't see him at school."

I sigh. I won't have to play housewife with Yuu anymore. It's making me sick every time I see him.

"And your brothers?" I ask him. He stays silent.

"They don't know anything. I intend to keep it that way." he looks off into the distance, "I want to protect them, just like you do with your friends."

"I've never really talked to you like this. I wished I did." I tell him honestly and he smiles a bit different from how he usually does. It makes me sad. Was he only pretending to act like a flirtatious boy?

I really gotta stop judging people...

"We're almost there." He squeezes my hand. "Remember, stay close to me." I nod and we come face to face with the gate.

"I'm scared."

"Don't be. I'll be here." He pats my head and we enter the large gates once more. He takes off his wig and removes his contacts. "Just be yourself."