Make You Believe ( A Benjamin Lasnier Fan Fiction )

Chapter 23

Warning this chapter may be very irrationally matured so.. read at your own risk.

Benjamin's POV

It has been like days? weeks? months? years? (I don't know) since I have left my room. I stepped out of my bed, my knees almost reaping out of me. I wobbled to my mirror. My knees weak enough to fall by my own. I dusted off the unwanted dust with my sleeve of the mirror revealing an unusual sight.

A blonde boy was standing before me. His eyes lacking a sprout of color, His skin in general was pale as snow likewise being drained from its original color. He was wearing a worn out tuxedo. His trousers were grown out short, as much as it was revealing his knees. It took a while for me to notice. That, this horrifying figure was me. I took off my polo revealing my skinny torso. Bones and nothing but bones was revealed. It was not that long till I felt teardrops falling down from my eyes.

Have I really let my feelings jeopardize my whole self? Was I becoming out of control? I was once healthy, but did I let it fall from being heartbroken? 

I took off my clothes and wrapped myself with a robe then went down. "Benjamin! Oh thank God you're alive!" my mom said hugging me, almost as if she was nearly crushing my bones.

I opened my mouth, but no words came out. A side effect from not being able to talk to anyone from the past few years "You should eat, a lot! I'll cook for you. Pasta! Your favorite! Just sit here okay?" she wiped her eyes with the edge of her apron and disappeared to the kitchen.

It hurts me to think that as I was suffering, someone is also being hurt. I shouldn't have done this to myself. What if I died from not eating? What will happen to my family? My mom is getting old and my brother- he's just a child.

"Here you go, eat all you want dear" she placed a huge bowl of pasta in front of me. Though I haven't had the guts to eat. I still went through it, considering my mom made it for me. And I don't want it to go to waste.

Just like Sam's love for me.. but I threw it all away.. This is what I get. This is what I deserve.

"Now, don't let negativity stop you from anything Ben" mom said as if she has read my mind "You were young back then. You were too young to know what is right or wrong. Don't blame yourself for everything" she breathed out putting her wrinkled hand on my back "You deserve the best Ben, you will get what you want if you work hard for it. Being sad and isolating yourself from the world won't do anything" As much as I want to deny it. My mom was right. I had become weak on falling for Bridgette but I can't possibly be weak on getting Sam and my life back.

I need to be strong.

I need the strength to do what is best for me and for my family.

And the to do what is right for Sam..

Sam's POV

Three years, thats right. It has been three years since I had made the right decision with my life. And after three years Im coming back. Going back to the place where I called home. To the place where I had experienced the saddest and happiest moments of my life. All of them leaving a mark in my memory. Every heartbreak, every misconception, every detail has been a part of my life that I will never regret. My thoughts were disturbed when my phone rang

GauthierGunter: Can't wait to see you again! :D I have a surprise for you.. but I can't tell it yet. And why you may ask? Because it is called a surprise for fuck's sake. Anyways love you!!

His stupidity just brings warmth to my heart, and you may be wondering why.

And it is because I did agree to his question. I did love him with all my heart. He is also the one who accompanied me to the showcase and resulting to being granted a chance to learn and live in the world’s finest colleges.