Standing Alone

Chapter 3.1

{first of all. I was going to update sooner, but I had some things to deal with... so here it is. Have fun}

Ezra's POV:
6 years passed. I don't remember much about that day. I remember Maul beating me... and a lightsaber going through me... but that's it. Kanan told me it's for the best that I don't remember the time when Sabine and I were with Maul. But... the day Ahsoka died? I remember that one so clearly... It is all my fault! It's my fault she's dead! Later... Rex told me that she was pregnant... Rex also mentioned that the baby would have been a girl... They even had a name for the little one... but it doesn't matter anymore...

It is all my fault...

"Oh Ezra..."

"Seriously! Stop blaming yourself! Stop being so childish! Tano deserved it!"

"MAUL!"

"What!"

"You're hurting him!"

"he's hurting himself! Literally..."

"I know that he cuts himself! But you keep pushing him!"

"NO YOU PUSH HIM!"

"I DO NOT!!"

I grabbed my head and rocked back and forth, wishing they would stop. My life... I wished it stopped... Deep inside... I hoped my life was just a dream... T-that Ahsoka was alive... that Barriss was alive... My parents... I felt tears streaming off my face. I grabbed the little box were the lightsabers from my parents used to be in... but now... there was a blade in it too... I ran to the bathroom, hoping the crew wouldn't pass me and see me cry... I entered and locked the door then I dropped my gloves and moved my sleeve out of the way... took the blade... and began to punish myself...

One cut... Two cuts... Three cuts... Four... The blood started dripping from the tub to the floor.

(the first person who can guess the song, gets a spoiler. :D)

I kept cutting myself... while I heard Barriss and Maul arguing in my head.

"Ezra STOP!!"

"You want to end this right kiddo... then end it... you'll feel better..."

"DO NOT LISTEN TO HIM! Ezra I love you! The crew loves you! Don't do this!"

I banned Barriss her voice... and listened to Maul... he may be evil... but now? Now, he is the only person who supports me...

"Cut deeper... then it ends faster..."

I am trying...

Tears streamed... until... It was over... I fell to the ground... dropped the blade... and closed my eyes.

I am sorry... I cannot do this any longer... forgive me...

{I don't regret anything😁}