Civil War

Dealing With Feeling

"Cap, can I ask you something?" He looks at me, nodding. Although I didn't know Steve for very long, I trusted him. "Who wanted you to find me?" I ask as Cap pulls out a laptop, "Don't talk about Bucky. Shield thinks he's dead and I'd like to keep it that way." He says, I nod, not wanting to question him. He clicked on something then slid the laptop over to me as I took a seat next to him. Bucky was across from us, still unmoving.

"Ivy?" A voiced asked over the speakers of the laptop. My eyes wander on the screen till I see the goofy face a someone I used to know. "Phil!" I exclaim with a smile.

My mother was in a very serious relationship with him for years, they never talked about it in front of me, but I saw them smooching more than enough times. "I missed you so much!" Phil says. "I see you're doing well." I smile, "Yeah, well, I guess being an assassin keeps you in shape." I joke. "There is something I need to show you." He said pulling away, Phil clicked at something on his keyboard till a video popped up on the screen. I waited as he opened it and clicked on a file called, 'Ivy Quinn'. I take a deep breath as a video opens up.

My mother appears on the screen, I had almost forgotten how beautiful she was. "Ivy, If you are seeing this you must have been found by Shield, hopefully you are with Phil, I made him promise not to watch this unless it was with you." I cover my mouth, her voice sent chills down my spine as Phil took a deep breath. My Mother was so gorgeous, she had light blond hair and dark emerald eyes, lashes long and eyebrows prominent and well kept. It made me wonder where I got my red hair from. "Now, Phil. I lied to you for so long and I am so sorry. Ivy isn't your daughter," My breath hitches as my heart pounds. All these years, Phil had thought I was his daughter? I looked to Phil, whose faced seemed utterly distraught. His mouth was agape as he stared at the screen. "I kept this a secret to keep you both safe. Now tomorrow is Ivy's tenth birthday and Hydra is going to attack. If Hydra finds out who Ivy's father is they will kill her with no remorse, they kinda hate the guy. Ivy, I want you to know, I wanted you to poison me. Mommy loves you with all her heart, and I hope you grow up strong and powerful, but I know you will. Phil, take care of her. Now last but not least, Ivy, I hope you remember a guy named Frank Castle, he is about seven years older than you, I want you to find him. If you switched sides, Hydra will go for him first to find out where you are, and to use him against you so you will switch back to their side, they'll use him as leverage." Mom looks to her right as a little me comes onto the screen.

"Mommy, what are you doing?" A young Ivy waltz onto the screen as Mom looks down at her, "Nothing beautiful, go play in your room, I'll be there in a moment." She says, little me smiles then runs off to her room. "Ivy, I know it will be hard to find out about your real Dad, but, just hear me out--" The feed cuts off instantly. I look over at Phil who's mouth was still wide open. Phil frustratedly clicked on something then sighed heavily, "She cut the feed off there," He said as I bit my lip. "What the hell?" I shake my head.

Although it bugged me to know I wouldn't find out who my Father was at the moment, I did remember the name Frank Castle, he was a neighboring boy, and I had the biggest crush on him, he was always so nice and kind to me, always made sure nobody was mean to me, he was probably the only person who I could consider as a friend back then.

"I forgot how strong your mother was." Phil says, "And sneaky." I add. We laugh as Sam busts through the Pilot's door.

"We have company, two Hydra ships and they are shooting to kill." Cap and I jump up as Phil asks what was happening, "We'll talk later," Cap says killing the feed and closing the laptop. "I'll take the one on the left, you get the one on the right, Sam keep an eye on Bucky." Cap says as he tosses a gun to me. I catch it, loading it quickly.

Cap and I go to our positions, the back door to the aircraft carrier slowly opens up. I watched as the Hydra aircrafts started shooting, I pulled back before they could take my head off. I couldn't get a clear shot, so I climbed out of the back, making my way to the top. I got low, aiming for the pilot's head, I take a deep breath then take the shot, hitting him right between the eyes. The aircraft swerves violently dropping down, crashing into the ocean. Cap takes out the other as it goes down just as quick.

I climb back into the back as Cap and I high five. "Nice shot," He says as I nod, "You two." I say as Sam yells, "He's waking up."

We walk back as James's head rises up. Cap and I walk in front of him, James locks eyes with me as he pulls at his cuffs. "Where am I?" He asked surveying his surroundings. Cap bends slightly, "Bucky, you're safe." James looks up at Cap, "Who the hell is Bucky?" Cap looked over at me, standing up. I bend quickly, knowing I was his target. "Do you know me?" I ask, James pulls at his cuffs violently once again. "Ivana Malu Quinn, age 22 and about 110 lbs, ethnicity is hawaiian and russian, you are a traitor and to be killed on sight." He spat, staring into my eyes.

"I see you know me, and I know you." I say, luckily I studied his file before all this went down. "James Buchanan Barnes, named after your grandpa, born March 10th, 1917, biologically you are 29 and we won't mention the other age, you used to be best friends with this man, Steve Rogers. Hydra took you in after you fell off a train, brainwashed you and made you into a ruthless and assassin." James looks down. I believe I might have gotten threw to him as Cap bends beside me. "Come back Bucky." Cap said as James looks back into my eyes. For a split moment the look in his eyes gave me hope.

James busted out of the handcuffs, throwing me back a couple feet. I shake my head, jumping to my feet. Cap jumps into action trying to contain James's anger. James throws Cap against the hard steel wall, instantly knocking him out. Sam charged him next, but it was a quick fight that Sam had lost. "James I know you remember me." He shook his head, charging at me. I dodged all his blows, trying to not hurt him. I wanted to convince him we were here to help. He caught me, throwing a wicked punch with his metal arm, it connected with my lower stomach as I flew back a couple feet, crashing into a table with a few glass cups shattering on the ground. I laid there for a moment as my mind scattered and body ached. I rose up as he menacingly walked towards me. I scooched back as much as possible till I hit the other wall of the plane. I put up my hands to protect myself.

"We talked about the meanings to our names!" I yelled, scavenging my brain for anything to get him to come back. He stopped immediately, eyes locked with mine. "Remember? I'm god's gracious and peaceful gift? Which was full of shit!" I pleaded, I felt my upper cheek bone throb as James pulled me to my feet, pushing me against the wall. I winced as I noticed his hands rise up to his head as he seemed to be having a battle in his own mind. I bit my lip, "I'm-- sorry." His voice was low as he backed away from me. I straightened up, pushing the loose strands of hair out of my face. "I remember, it's coming in--- flashes," He was broken down, and tired. He dropped to his knees as he began to hold his head. I slowly walked to him, dropping to my knees beside him. "Do you know who you are?" I ask, "I'm a murderer." He breathed out, he was back to himself, but being the Winter Soldier took a toll on him. He knows what he did when he wasn't in control and he feels responsible for it all. "No-- no you're not." I say. I felt the same pain as him. I was also in Hydra, I wasn't brainwashed, but I might as well of. "I killed--" I cut him off, "I have too, but people make mistakes when they're not calling the shots," He looks up at me, his eyes in complete despair.

"I thought I was a hero, but I was just a blind fool, and I have to face that, everyday of my life from now on. I made a mistake. But I won't beat myself over the past, because it happened, and there is nothing I can do to change that." His eyes never left mine as I spoke. "Don't let them control you anymore, don't give into the fear and pain of the past." He nods, looking down to the floor. A feeling rushed over me as I wrapped my arms around James body, although I couldn't fully wrap around him, due to his large size, this would have to do. For a moment he freezes and even tenses up, but then I felt his muscles relax and he hugged me back, wrapping his metal and regular arm around my frame.